Apr 6, 2007

a pink cry

When I hear that old song

Little pearls arose on my cheeks

Those pink dunes are wet

As a desert rarely showered

Then flowers bloom in my heart

I wish to sent bunches of them

Every morning of you life

To scent it up with grace

I may intoxicate you

But my frangance is less strong

Than your attraction

Dec 20th, 2005, 01:22 AM

overcloud dream

Who needs a heart when the world belongs to us
Now that you turn my brain in a happiness factory
The sun shines again over my hood and life
I ride ever more freely where the butterflies go
All lips are sweet but not as unhealthy as candy
Everywhere the wind swings hair
Everywhere sun kisses my sight
Everywhere planes overtake clouds
Your face as cold as a pure crystal sculpure
Frozen in white and blue eternity of death
These colors strangely attract me on the ice
Was I ever looking for your sharp glance
But that day is memorial
Deep written in my souvenirs
No regret nor forgetness

Jan 2nd, 2006, 02:46 PM

Western hate

To all those I hate
I hereby say why
I wished your death
Aware you could
have killed me then
My wonders turn to anger
Why did you spare us
Else we could have enjoyed
Promised eternal delights
Instead of CNN staring
At this endless nightmare
What a cruel waste
You made of our pure world
Looked for my green land
But it is under thick trashes
Those burnt evidence ashes
Long swept by the wind
You built your malls
On our bison bones
So much death still alive
On hate don't arise peace
My testimony I am not guilty
But the blood in my vein
Tell me I cried in vain
Cause you're forever villain
Historical backlashes
Can't even teach you
To clean your a$$es

Jul 11th, 2005, 11:52 AM

monsoon shadow

i can't forget this look under the heavy rain
i can't forget this glimpse in the night
i know we are just hopes and a dream for each other
i know distance make us feel more alive but less real
that kinda pain make us feel warm and hopefull
that a day will bring us some closeness,
just as if life could turn into a fairytale
let's come adults, forget our dreams, forget ourselves
let us live by society standard and become two shadows in the night
love is impossible, just like our life

Jan 8th, 2007, 11:05 PM

monsoon shadow ( following)

My love has big black eyes.
My love has no one to care for
My love is lonely and poor
My love has some despair in his eyes
My love does not speak my language
But love has its own language
And I can see in his eyes all the dreams he have
And I’m the only one to live those dreams
I feel ashamed to have that luck for two
It snows on the top of the world
And my love is cold, and lonely at night
But my words sent on wires warm him
Until destiny brings us together again

Jan 24th, 2007, 07:00 PM


I'm a fairy, come take my hand
I'll lead you to the land of dreams
I'm a fairy, follow my grass eyes
My smile will guie you to happiness
I'm a fairy, listen to my song
I'll whisper the secrets to paradise
I'm a fairy, catch my golden hair
I'll let your heart shines away from sorrow
But you're stoned heart shout
That's a witch stay away
In the hurry of stressfull meaningless life
You turned your back and stay hollow

Jan 27th, 2007, 02:04 PM

blue love

all i can see is a shining lamp
a smiling sun in the cotton blue sky
i have an infinite love for winter
the marvellous shades of blue ice
it seems sight never will get back
i'm lost in blue paradise

Mar 10th, 2007, 10:03 PM

July wednesday 20th and thursday 21th, 1st day in india

i spent the whole day in a plane, trains, subway, waiting room, customs and taxi yestserday, from 6AM Paris time to 24PM Dehli time!!!!!! then I washed clothes and took a shower as soon as I went to my guest house and sleep (or triedy to! but couldn't because of time change btw paris and dehli) only few hours before a busy shopping day today....I bought 3 pretty silk salwar kamez, a silk carpet from kashmir (for namaz), shoes, bag...well to much stuff!!!!!!!

22nd july, second day in new dehli-Jul 24th, 2005 at 12:12 PM

wow a fucking mosquito bite me tonight I scratch it on the wall...she was full of blood no I am not tired because of the mosquito but because I am difficult to adjust to time change when going eastward on the globe...
yesterday night I watched PTV world...first time in my life watching paki TV!!! musharraf was talking....and I understood!!! that kind of feeling is great...I meant he is talking clear and slow so it is easy to understand, especially because he uses many english words but I really liked to understand spoken urdu with no subtitles, images or anything else than the talk to undestrand what was said....but I did not watch the whole talk because it is boringpolitician talk....

23th july-Jul 24th, 2005 at 12:17 PM

I am a lucky girl because this morning I had to wake up at 4h30 to depart at 5 oclock from new Dehli to Jaipur (train at 6.00)...and no alarm clock...and I slept very well, but woke up at 4.30sharp! isn'it weird?

Anyway i took the train at 6.00 at new dehli...it was a nice journey, i enjoyed looking at the landscape from my window, execpt for the slums and poor people I saw...it is difficult for me to look at all this poverty! I feel embarrassed.

I like the countryside, green fields, flooded fields (rice?)
women in colorful saris walking around, thin white silhouettes of standing men looking after cattle...and in the trees peacoks...my favourite bird!

I have been walking in Jaipur most of the afternoon...all the time risckhaw-walla, asking me where I want to go, whereas i only wanted to walk!...but there are so few peolple walking because of the heat...but I like it, ..and also if i don't walk I feel like a lazy-bum and i just hate sitting the whole day in a train, plane or taxi...I need exercise...and it's easy to hide from the sun...my dupatta over the head and I don't even think about sun shining on my face any more...yes I am wearing one the salwar kamiz I bought in mew Dehli...i like it very much!

2nd day in jaipur-Jul 24th, 2005 at 12:28 PM

I was very tired yesterday too , I slept straight after coming back to my hotel.... then have diner, then discuss with the two iranians guest staying at the guest house in Jaipur...at the beginning there were the manager, he was saying I have an american accent but one of the iranians women answered that I am talking with the same rythm than a german...so my english accent is a mix of US and german!

i was gonna have a shower when I SAW something moving in my bathroom bag...it was a big insect...6 cm long at least
i WAS SO FRITHENED, i reached for my shampoo bottle and killed it with it ...I was really shaken!...we don't have so big insects in France....
Today I went to Amber fort and city palace of Jaipur an took some pics...
These palaces once inhabitad by mahrajahs are really amazing, but they are not so richly decorated as say, previous royal castles that we have in France...mostly because most of the furniture and original carpets, tapestry..are gone! But from outside they are really wonderful!
i loved also this abandonned palace, like floating on a lake, just outside the city of jaipur
I think there are too many tourists regularly visiting there because streets vendors are a hassle...yesterday it was the rickshaw wallw, today the street vendor...oh I forgot about that carpet sailor...he showed me how to make a carpet, briefly, then many nice carpets, all sizes and all colors, then started to chat a bit in french with me!...yeap many french in Rajasthan!...tried to convinve me 100hundred ways to buy a carpet...but I don't want to, I already got one fine not expensive in new dehli....!

last day in Jaipur, indian impression-Jul 25th, 2005 at 12:02 PM

I visited the inner wall city today, yani Jaipur has an old historical center inside pink walls, with decorated and impressive gates...inside there are many shops, various shops selling almost anything...but i was not in the mood to shop..somtimes I just don't feel like buying anything...I don't want to buy stuff, just cause I can afford it and then have no use for it! i have to plan minimum beforehand what I'd like to buy otherwise, i don't buy...even if those shopkeepers in India try very hard to sell their goods to any tourists I don't know if there is some kind of equation like, white=$$$ ...
I was followed most of morning by a guy.... first he was cycling on the road and when reached me said to me I love you...I thought that'll be all, but he was like allways on my way afterwards, i don't know how! everytime i didn't notice he just pumped from nowhere passing close to me trying to touch me...*disguting*I became paranoid, kept on looking backwards all the time...after 1 hour he probably got pissed off...and left me alone finally!

indian streets are very dirty, trashes everywhere, people (men) peeing on almost any corner...it is not really nice...and also cows and other aimals (camels, goats...) are ****ing on the streets so with the brilliant sun, it is really stinking! but I guess I got used to it because I don't really mind now!...oh there are also garbages on the streets, and animals are eating them!
fortunately some shops are seling garlands of flowers close to hindus temple so it is a relief from bad smell!, I like jasmine and roses smell very much!

last day in Jaipur...2-Jul 26th, 2005 at 07:28 PM

after sitting 2 hours in front of a computer in a cyber cafe, I had finished my 1l bottle of purified water and felt a bit thirsty, I wanted a tea...I entered a neary cafe/restaurant full of locals, all males (why no women?) and ordered a "cai", I was quite disapointed to be answered they had none, India isn't a tea country?? well the guy said they had lassi, s I decided to try....hmmmm, it was cold enough but not frozen, sweet enough not to be sour, creamy but not to hearty....well delicious....then I walked back home....diner as usual...wanted to access internet but...no connection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I was so sad....

samode palace- Jul 26th, 2005 at 07:46 PM

I went from jaipur to samode by car today...with the same car and driver that will take me to the whole Rajastan during this next 2 weeks...
I am amazed at the way people drive...apart from being very slow...which I like (I can't drive in France, it's too fast and I am frightenned by speed)...they use the horn all the time...I saw some trucks that had written on the back: speed 40km/h BLOW HORN...in addition to trucks and cars, there are numerous bycicles, rickshaws, scooters and also some camel driven carriage!...ooops I forgot to mention cows...and other cattles!

So I am in Samode Palace! that's great! the dining hall is amazing! my room too! the bathroom is at least 5m long!...and it's looking like a real maharajah suite!...this place is great, i'll have to post pics later...
I toured the village this afternoon...first I met a family, Khan family...I know because I asked for the address to send their picture that I took...hopefuly speaking and reading a little hindi helped me communicate with these women and girls who know no english! excep HELLO!
Then I met a boy...who guided me to some other part of the village, 14 years old and so intelligent, english speaking too...afterwards he showed me his paintings...then another guy, my age, came to show his paintings..both were very nice...that other guy spoke very good english and we talked until night...he took some time to believe it's my first time in India...as he think I am behaving just like an indian! it was fun learning from him more about indian village life...I liked it...he saw I have an open wound on my right foot and some bees were sometime eating my flesh when i sat still so he asked the younger guy to catch some plants nearby...and press the liquid out on my wound!...indian medicine, I guess!....I hope it's gonna heal soon, but bees really scare me now, I don't want to be eaten alive!
I bought some paintings from them...negociate hard the price thought!...then I finally could taste some of the real indian masala tea! just as in my memory from the time I had indian friends preparing some for me...fine! I like it...I just feel like i am home then.

Mandawa, Shekawati region, Rajasthan-Jul 27th, 2005 at 03:10 PM

I came from Samode to Mandawa this morning, it was a pleasant 2.5hour car trip...many things to see on the road from cattle to big trucks loaded with cattle food, coming from Punjab.....
I am staying at the Mandawa castle...from there I have a nice view of the city....I took a pic...I am impressed by the size of the masjid compare to the size of the city...only 20.000inhabitants...that is reallt different in france!!

I slept during the middle of the day...anyway it was to hot to go out..and people at the hotel advised me to tour tour the city late in the afternoon...I felt dizzy afterwards, but decided to tour at 3PM...a cool breeze and no sun!
Then I went to visit the small city because there are havelis; old houses nicely painted...one guy made me tour and explained the city...but he had a crush on me! he remembered when and how I arrived in the city...saying alle the time I am nice, calling Noor Jaan...asking if I am married or have a boyfriend...lol! indians can be so funny! but I am not interested anyway....
those houses are mostly abandoned and most of their paintings are really in bad condition...the hot sun does not help...anyway the owners of these former palaces are into business and live far away in big cities, they have other hings o care about than these historical monuments....it gives an odd feeling visiting this pretty but deserted old city!

Bikaner 28th july

so I was sick 2 days ago...fever and upset stomach when I had to go from Mandawa to Bikaner...so i could'nt do anything that day...i saw an indian doctor as soon as i arrived in bikaner hotel. it was cheap, quick and good efficient medicine so i could visit a camel research institute at night...I love camels very much, there were also baby camels, so cute!
The next morning so I finally vivited the fort, which I was supposed to do the day before...it was nice

bikaner / jaisalmer 29th

main parson bemaar thi...fever and upset stomach when I had to go from Mandawa to Bikaner...so i could'nt do anything that day...so i could'nt do anything that day...i saw an indian doctor as soon as i arrived in bikaner hotel. it was cheap, quick and good efficient medicine so i could visit a camel research institute at night...I love camels very much, there were also baby camels, so cute!
The next morning so I finally vivited the fort, which I was supposed to do the day before...it was nice...

Yesterday I traveled from bikaner to Jaisalmer..300 km by road btw the desert...mostly savanah...some sand dunes, sometimes reaching the road and beginning to cover the milesstones...I had bought cassettes of indian music in Mandawa, and the driver played them while driving, so it was less boring! anyway I enjoy so much the travel...cattle on the way, small villages made of earth and thatched roofs! camel carriage and colorful trucks!

I went to the lake close to Jaisalmer, very beautiful scenery..a girl saw me and said 'hei auntie!' so I replied"main auntie nahin hoon"...she was surprised...then her whole family started talking little hindi with me...a muslim family!...but with he hindi accent they couldn't say "khuda hafiz" but"kuda hafiz"lol!
at the guest house, one of the guys is literally eating me with the eyes...that's really embarrasssing...anyway i am now getting more used to it...some indian guys are just so staring...i feel like hiding but the more I hide the more they get curious about me!

In the night I wanted to eat diner outside, but the guest house keeeper told me to order food from anearby restaurant and eat on the roof...that was really pleasant , nice view of the city from the top of the fort and on the approaching storm and thunder....just after I finished my diner...the sand storm covered the low outer city, hit us and then came rain...I was lucky not to have gone outside! I reached my room and 5 min later, power cut! luck again the room is small so I knew where everything was and didn't need light to walk around!!!
but i was relieved 2hours later when I could finallly put AC on to have a nice sleep!

from the deset to Jodhpur-Jul 31st, 2005 at 02:42 PM

I am now in Jodjpur! i went from Jaisalmer to Jodhpur today. I visited the amazingly beautiful fort this afternoon.
I really suffer from the hot!

Yesterday evening I went to the desert to ride a camel up to a sand dune to see the sunset but ubfortunately there were clouds coming just as the sun was to set anyway I took nice pics of the desert and my camel. She was a bit nervous on the way back so I didn't ride untill the end, but that was a good first experience...and I even saw some antilopes in the desert!!

After I had diner with the local p[eople, wih songs also. then I came back to Jaisalmer. A sand storm, thunder, lightning and rain made the journey difficult because with sand it's hard o see he ro0ad at night with the carlight...but sometimes there were so much lightning that we could forget it was night! At the bottom of the city it was really flooded, and there was a power cut! power was cut up to 1.00AM I think...so i had to walk to the guest house alone in the dark as no car is allowed in the fort...there were no light, xcept lightning and lots of dogs barking...I got really frightneted!! All I can say now is that it is an unforgattable evening!!

Ranakpur 1/8/05 jain temples

I went from Jodhpur to Ranakpur, little city in the southern Rajastan that morning.
I visited the Jain temples during lunch time, white marble very beautifully carved temples. there were lots of priests dressed in red, orange and yellow inside. I liked the smell of incence and flowers....While visiting it started to rain so I could take the waterfalls from the roofs in pic...
I laughed at the western visitors, because many went in groups...very stupid tourists unaware of local traditions...they were requested to cover their legs and shoulders, while removing their shoes and socks...so funny to see!!
More funny was that some didn't know about monsoon season so they had nothing to protect from the rain...and putting back wet socks and sneakers is...well I prefer to avoid!

the most epic day, tuesday August 2nd: drive to Dungarpur....

So I was supposed to be driven from Ranakpur to Dungarpur, via Udaipur this morning and then visit tht town in the afternoon, but the monsoon decided otherwise....
It had rained the whole previous afternoon, and it rained also that whole day!! The road from ranakpur to Udaipur goes through mounts which results in a road looking either like a river, lake or torrent, depending in the tilt of the road....but not like a road anyway...so when the water was a bit deeper or faster, there were some vehicles stopping and soon a traffic jam forming, even in the middle of the indian jungle there were crowds of curious, beggars in addition to the stuck vehicles: trucks, cars, jeeps and motorcycles...
We spent some time waiting for water to thin and slow down, but at our latest stop the rain began again to fall stronger after some time so we decided to get back after asking locals about another way...at that point my driver decided to take with us a local guide, spanish speaking, going to Udaipur and who was stuck travelling on a stopped bus...That guy spoke hindi with a spanish accent!!so funny...So we talked all the way left to Udaipur...That remind me of how much I like the company of well educated people, ie this guide in addtition to speaking spanish and good english hold a Master in history and was very keen on excahnging about our different historical and linguistical bakgrounds. He was also very good looking which only added to the pleasure of the talk!...no, no flirting at all...I'm not like that!
from the morning til the evening when we reached Dungarpur, I had no food/drink/relieve myself, because of that longer than thought journey...but I kept on smiling and joking with my driver...who was amazed at that!
Sometimes i am not in the mood of feeling sad, angry or mean...And it's been days, or weeks, since I can't be sad...I can't explain why only happiness and love are in my heart, and I'm flying on that pink bubble and wanna have only fun whatever **** happen....though i have to say no day pass without this f@#$%^ pain in my stomach...

highways-Aug 3rd, 2005 at 06:19 PM

i took the highway from udaipur to Dungarpur yesterday and this morning ...2ways...
I never saw a highway like that before! cattle and dogs crossing...children carrying woods on their heads walking by...women and men running through the way...that looked so wweird to me, but that's how i like India: natural! everythings is normal and the fewer the rules the better!!

Dungarpur palaces-Aug 3rd, 2005 at 06:32 PM

Finally I arrived at Dungarpur new palace, converted into hotel and could enjoy my suite with lake view! prtty lake, and many fowls on small island in the middle of it.

i went to dine on a very big dinig table, maybe 5 or 6 meter long, and I was alone, but 4 waiters were there to care about me, plus the manager! Then I took tea in a sitting room called the african room, because many trophees from wild game hunted in Africa (former british colonies) druing the 70s by the previous maharajah were hang on the walls, as well as in the dining room, That gave a somewhat strange and unpleasant smell to these rooms. So the old indian guy in short, thongs and listening to a walkman sitting in an armchair on the terrace close to my room was the present maharajah!! How odd!

This morning i went to the old palaces that once was used by the same royal family as in the hotel...I was the only tourist, as usual in those remote places, so the guard show me in a private tour the 7storey old stinking palace, a pure jewel!! many many miniature paintings inside, chinese old blue porcelaine, mirrors and carved walls, carpets...a really nice but deserted palace....some part were in bad shape and bats were the only inhabitants!

udaipur-Aug 4th, 2005 at 02:26 PM

i visited the city palace yesterday, it was another good experience...i am a little used to these palaces now but I am still amazed at those miniature paintings in mughal style that are widespread here....they use camel eyelashes for the bigger brushes and squirrel tail hair for the shaper details...and colours are natural from oxides: iron for red, zinc for white...all found around the town except the blue stone lapilazuli from Aghanistan.
this morning i visited beautiful temples, old ones and temples still on use ...hindu temples! some of the statues have their heads cut and guide explained to me it was the muslin invadors 13 centuries ago who did that!...anyway visiting temple is not my cup of tea....all those gods names and rituals i can't remember...I really don't like that religion at all...i like only the carvings! and flower garlands, they smell good!especially roses, we don't have these roses in france...I wish I could bring some plant home!
this afternoon is hot humid covered sky and I am stuck in a city for tourist which means nothing typical in shops but lots of touts around so that is why I am online...long time, but it's good to be on GS for a while i almost missed it

udaipur bis-Aug 4th, 2005 at 04:50 PM

I was really pissed off by folks today, beggars, touts, street vendors...i was not in the mood of walking arounf, so i just came to sit on GS this afternoon, as this city is sooooo too much touristical for me.
Though the lake is really nice, ewspecially at night, I mean last evening I had diner on the lake bank, and the lights from the palaces were reflecting on the still waters, that was really pretty!

I had a fresh green coconut drink this day, before visiting a nice tropical garden...i liked it! I enjoyed these kinds of refreshments in tropical parts of france, like Caribbean and Polynesia, before...one more reason to feel like home in India!

joke of the day-Aug 10th, 2005 at 02:28 PM

ever wonder why indian old fort or old inoccupied temple stink so much???

the answer is simple clear!

"bat smell is bad smell"!!!!!! lol!

Taj Mahal-Aug 10th, 2005 at 02:32 PM

I visited Taj mahal when in Agra...of course, everybody goes to Taj Mahal...but paying 750Rs because I am not indian made me really really reaallllyyy mad at indians who pay only 20Rs!!!!!!!

and I was the touristic attraction of the day...even indians asked me to pose on phtoto with them! so a discount would have been greatly appreciated but no i paid even more as thos f@#$%^&*() admin people did not give me back my change! so 1000Rs to visit Taj mahal!!!

Fatehpur Sikri- Aug 10th, 2005 at 02:37 PM

it is one of the places you enjoyed a guide...a good one! so much about emperor Akbar to learn! an illliterate clever man who had 3 wives, a christian given by portugese (GOA), a muslim and a hindu...because muslim and hindu rulers in India at the time...so much more power by being friend to everyone! really clever! and he had 325 concubines for fun in addition!!

so the palace was nice...and the visit instructivem after i went to visit the mosque, where the tomb of a sufi saint is, and I made as is the tradition, 3 wishes by tying threads on the walls...dunno if it will work but hope so!!

I visited one more sufi saint tomb today in Gwalior, a singer, I like those places because they smell nice! many rose petals on the tomb so nice smell!

Bassi and Chittogarh-Aug 10th, 2005 at 02:46 PM

I was in Bassi a few days ago...but not written about it yet, so...I have to say you should go to Bassi fort if you visit India, because the owner of the place, a retired colonel of indian army, has a lovely wife who is very welcoming! She is the mayor of the village of Bassi also! the rooms are good, the food is, well funnily not spicy because I am not indian so i guess it was on purpose!
I visited the village with one of the staff of the hotel...personal visit! very instructive about village life! all children after me saying hello or bye, and shaking hand!
quite disguting too too, because I saw a child shting on the street!
And also I forgot to say that a, small, cow stamped on my foot!! I was walking in the middle of the street on a narrow path btw water and steps and the cow only run towards me,and I had little time to side, otherwise I would have been down or in the water

at night i had diner on the terrace with the lady, and also her eldest son came to talk to me...it was nice

we talked about the festival that was held that day. Actually I had visited the old fort of Chittor ie Chittorgarh in the afternoon. it was really busy, packed with people...because of a festival celebrating rain (it was heavily monsooning before as I said in previous entries) by picknicking with families and going to the multiple temple in the fort (14km long)
as the fort is in the summit of a plateau we had to get down after by a narrow raos which is even narrowed at 7 gates, and we spent 1 hour at one of this gate, hopefully my driver in Rajastan had a really good humor and we had also, good AC and casstes of Bollywood music...so looking at people passing by outside and waving at me while I was stuck was fun!!!
I forget to say that a rickshaw wala, stuck besides us was gorgeous! he was staring at me smiling, thumb up to say something nice to me...he was so good looking, i am sure he knew it, reason why he stared so much at me....

dilli again-Aug 11th, 2005 at 11:47 AM

so I am in Dehli again...it's definitly too hot for me...hopefully there is AC!!!! I love AC so much...hope it's not the nick of a guppy or it will be misunderstood for something that wasn't meant...
i escaped from the post office where a big crowd of locals gave me little way to buy stamps and then find out the way to post them...I hope they'll arrive soon...that way i know the time it will take to send postacrds to some places from india...so when you go there I will tell you *talking to all guppies who wanna go to india

dehli to Shimla-Aug 12th, 2005 at 01:26 PM

I am now in the lovely mountains of Himachal pradesh! Shimla, I love that place
Today I got from Dehli to SHimla via Kalka, by train up to Kalka and then car to Shimla. On the train I was sittinkg next to an Swedish businessman who asked me many questions about India, he was only for business and new almost nothing about India geography so with the help of my lonely planet guidebook I taught him little stuff. He said to me that I had a "easy to like smile", one of the kindest comment ever made to me.

The road from kalka to Shaimla is sinous in the mountain ...I love that place, Shimla is a misty town perched on the mountains, with many deodar cedars and some monkeys running around on the roofs...including in my posh heritage hotel: the Woodville resort! really a nice old building from the british era, 1938, is written on the front door!

Shimla-Aug 14th, 2005 at 05:14 PM

yesterday morning I went wandering the streets of Shimla, looking for a place to get a new battery for my watch cause it has broken down, which quite annoying as i have only this watch to tell me the hour in India...i did not know where I was going so I only followed the biggest crowd of people..as in early morinig people go to work I figured this would be where i found some shops....
So I walked around in these sinuous roads on the mountain slope...bordered by cedars and inhabited by dogs and monkeys, really lovely and some spectacular views on the valley too!
i found a watch repair corner shop, and in the early moring i waited 5 minutes for the guy to open his shop, then good job done for only 60 Rs, which is a little more than only1 euro!!! I was really happy!
then I went by car to Chail via very scenic mountain roads! then I stopped at the zoo of Kufri, I paid only 10 Rs (indian fee! lol, thanx Qrius you gave me good luck!) I saw there many typical himalayan birds and also, black and brown bears, wolves and my favourite animal the snow leopard!!!!!!!!! love again!!!!!!!
At night I talked to one of the guy from the staff after diner..and he talked really freely to me, saying that he wanted to have sex with me! I explained i did not want cause i am waiting till wedding, but he said it was a long way and i needed some while still young and healthy!!! khair those unmarried young guys are really weird sometimes, I know now why most indian men marry at 17-18, lol!

Naggar/ jana-Aug 14th, 2005 at 05:27 PM

today I went from Shimla to naggar by car...only 280 km but it took the whole day! but these mountain roads are really amazing, especially today we came through many different places, along the Kullu valley for exmple there are many fields in terrraces and banana trees, which I find very elegant...then we came along the valley of the river Beas which is so beautiful!!! we came across a damn and up there was a multicolored lake, party green and partly muddy, wow then we drove up a very steep valley looking a bit like a fjord! so many things reminds me of norway here, the trees, the mountains, the glacial river (like the Beas)...I really love that place!
but when i look closer i saw that there was cactus and palm trees of the slopes which are rather exotic, na? and also some monkeys on the road side, along with the ubiquitous indian cows!

Then we finally reached nagar where i am now, the manager of the hotel took me to a special guided tour! the advantage of traveling alone in fine hotel is that I am really treated like a princess! private tours, private visits...so great!
so we went in the mountains high above Nagar 8000ft high, arouind his village so he knew everyone and marveled at some pretty waterfalls, and then wlked in the deep pine-cedar forest, listening to those very loud insects singing! really lovely!
he red my lines in my hand and predict me: 90+ years old in my life, a wedding in december or january this year and 2 kids! lol!
When we came down the guide-manager bought some cauliflowers to young boys on the road he had to insist loud to pay!!! then we saw some guys trying to lift a cow to put her in a van!!so funny, ..indian ways are really funny sometimes and that is just what I like!

Kullu valley/ Naggar-Aug 15th, 2005 at 07:20 AM

more about my trip in the Beas valley (more or les around Kullu), well those of you from punjab know BEAS river, its valley is one of the most beautiful here in Himachal Pradesh...where it is a mountain river with tumultuous flows...
what is really great is to see it fom the high slopes...where Naggar lies for example...or from the point of view of an eagle...I saw many of them yesterday planning on the wind above the valley looking down for some preys to catch..they are really the kings of birds! and I like thir sounds..its really nice! not like those freaky crows in the pine infront of the table where I took my breakfast...they even chase away the lovely birds...which I don't the name in english, in french it is "menate"...they are everywhere in India and I saw many of them in polynesia (tahiti) last year...
Today the valley is really misty, so it is not possible to take good pics...but now I see the sun so let's hope it will get rid of those lovely white clouds so i can take more pics of the Beas river...I'll come out and see...bye!

Manali-Aug 16th, 2005 at 03:05 PM

I am in Manali...I arrived yesterday...it is a nice place on a steep valley, with very big cedars, the lovely Beas roaming at the bottom of the valley, many apple trees and also pink roses...and very typical old houses in wood...and alsmost all of thoses old houses house cattle, including the ubiquituous indian cow!!
So I went to Rohtang la (la is pass in tibetan)...4000m! I had never been so high on earth before...but that was great, the journey in the mountain till then was breathtaking and at the top it was so chilly...I remembered being a northern girl so I was with my light silk salwaar qameez and open shoes while indian tourists had big clothes, but I did not feel cold at all...only great! it was so great to feel really cold wind on my face after so much time in the hot indian and french summers....wow I miss very much scandinavia....pata nahin kyon....
yesterday evening before dark I went for some shopping...I entered a kashmiri shop for some woolen items...the shopkeeper was really nice (and cute) but it seemed that everytime he put a new shawl on me he was getting closer and closer to me and trying to touch me more and more...a bit disturbing!...I hold not to laugh out loud cause I found it more funny than anything else...maybe he thought I would less bargain if he were more sweet to me, but pretty eyes never work on icy northern blondies!!

indian roads-Aug 16th, 2005 at 03:35 PM

some funny signs seen on indian roads:
-better late than never
-be mild on my curves
-safety drive on the road/safe tea at home
-if you are maried/divorce speed
-speed thrills/but kills

little tibet-Aug 20th, 2005 at 12:09 PM

Around Dharamsla in Himachal Pradesh are a lot of tibetan refugees. So there are a lot of tibetan monatries and buddhist temples...they are highy decorated with bright paitings and big gold statue of buddha...there are also lots of colored flags hangings all over places...it's nice to feel like in Tibet while still in India...it's like I visited another country without going too far...
i talked a while with a guy at thereception desk in the guest house....a tibetan refugee...very sad story, he was a monk in tibet but fled because of the chinese repression (chinese were regularly arresting monks, and then they forever disappeared), he had no family at all here in India, and did not really like indian cities, because they are dirty and busy...not like chinese ones...also coming from a village with famer parents it was a big cultural shock for him...and he is paid really peanuts: 3000Rs/months...

pragpur-Aug 22nd, 2005 at 01:10 PM

I was in the little village of pragpur yesterday...wonderful heritage village with many, many old buildings, well paved roads, and clean!!! I loved to tour the village with that old govt guide (78 years old!), he asked me my religion, I answered i am muslim...and then he explained me that musulman was a word coming from musalim, strong, and amin, faith...is that true? anyway he was really great when we visited the hidu temple, he passed before the statues of their idols they called gods, saying to me I guesss you are not interested by them! right guess, i was not...
At night i enjoyed the diner in the garden, in front of the little palace where i was staying...illumated...wow I tried to tke pic, but at night I don't know if it is going to be fine...
another couple, desi, was staying at the hotel, a woman, her older uglier hubby and their cute young boy (1 or 2 years old)...when he started staring at me he couldn't stop smiling!...that was nice! i like babies...

old dehli: Aug 24th, 2005 at 02:54 PM

i have been walking in Old dehli this morning...narrow streets,many shops...verylively...i felt like home...no it's not really like paris...but more than new dehli or any other city visitedso farin india...probably the capital effect!!...I loved it really...everyone toldme that dehli is not pleasant...and many mean things but dehli,purani dilli,is great! I even saw very little cute cheeksin 2 boxes, one full of yellow cuties and the other of brown ones...i felt like kissing them all...so shweeeet!!!!!!!!!

historic Dehli-Aug 25th, 2005 at 04:27 PM

I visited today, the historic Dehli...or a part of it, as Dehli is really big...
first i went to the area of Humayun tomb...it is the tomb of a mughal emperor, that was built by her grieving wife....it is really the building who inspired Shah Jahan to build the Taj mahal....i love that red and white building...so pretty...and the renovated gardens around are awsome! a real piece of paradise...water ponds, yellow frangipani and white jasmine, green parrot, big palm trees and cute squirrels...
I went to the edge of the city where Qutub minar lies, and at its feet the oldest masjid in India...Qutub is also made in that red/pink sandstone that ornate, the red fort of Dehli, or the humayun tomb...my favourite building stone!
the mosque is in ruins but the minar is wonderfully preserved...all the Quran carving are in perfect state...and I allways felt a frisson when seeing those carving on the tombs i visited....indo-islamic architecture is the one that speak to my heart as well as my eyes...so That was a good day!
i also saw the lotus temple, a white big lotus like modern construction, for meditiation surrounded by small pool like ponds...but stinking! I have to say i hate hindu and other temples...they might be pretty i just feel alien there and can't contemplate anything...their rituals are toomuch for me!

waggah/attari border-Aug 26th, 2005 at 12:32 PM

When I was in Amritsar, before coming back to Dehli I decided that i was close enough to PK not to miss the opportunity to see it...so I went to the famous Attari border station, Wagah on the PK side....I was really excited to see Pakistan for the first time! and felt so emtional when i heard the pakistani crowd singing pakistan zindabad!...and the nice green and white flag swinging in the wind...or thanx to energic men dressed in green salwar qameez with a white crescent and star in the middle!
It was a great show, military guys very tall, in funny costumes did a prarde on each side...while the crowd was exhorted to shout patriotic slogans, along with loud desi music...so that each side could not hear the other one....at the end they pulled down the flags...indian on indian side, pakistanis on pakistan side...shut a last time til the next day, the border....
very emotional and fun experience as the public...numerous was really enthusiastic...especially those young punjabi guys dancing on bhangra rythmn...i liked it!

today I love dehli-Aug 26th, 2005 at 03:01 PM

I wanted to experience the brand new modern metro of Dehli...had seen a sign "subway" near lahore gate (close to red fort, in old dehli) so decided to go there again this morning...it is one mile away from my hotel...but there i found out that it was a sub-way under the road!!!!!!!!!!! dispointed i wanderd aimless in the streets...my uplifting sight was the mosque so I walked in the mosque (JAMA MASJID) direction...and try to lose myself in the Meena market...i bought a prayer carpet and then....explored more old dehli....i was lost really, and thirsty....suddenly a dabha where I could purchased water...and then...a metro station!!!!!!!!
providence finally found me! so i came down, purchased a ticket to "connaught place" while I did not know the name of the station where i was and where i was going to??
but i took it...looked very deep in the line map on the train..decided Rajiv Chowk should be my stop...asked at the TikaT corner...and finally out i saw the bright light of the white shop-building of Connaught Place (ie CP)!!
walked in the circle till I found a music shop....my aim! and bought 10 CDs!!
-dil se
-dhoom machala
-aashiq banaya aapne
-bunty aur babli
-chandi ki doli from Sonu
-kangna from Dr Zeus
-Huqi pani from Ali Zafar
for only 1369 Rs...half the price of indian CDs in Paris...and five times less as wetern music in france....so cheap!
then i was thirsty again, so i bought a pepsi at a stall, and the guy asked me why I had a veil over my face...i said "too much sun" he thought it was because of too much sand! and added "you like to be very pretty!"...yes i india taking care of one white complexion means liking to be pretty! cool so i am pretty?
I took again the metro to come back...it is only 6 Rs oe way for two stations...from Old dehli to CP I have to say metro is the cheapest and safest and quickiest mode of trasportation...I almost felt like home you know paris subway is such a great thing to me....so now i can say I love Dehli...as much than Paris...

muslim world-Aug 26th, 2005 at 03:29 PM

yesterday i changed room from a small room without window to a bigger one with window...cause i am in dehli one week so i wanted a nice room...even if I have to pay a little extra*sigh*
so i looked out and saw a big 5 or6 stores building with a minaret and in construction..in front of my room...mosque, madrasa? anyway at 4.45 AM this morning "Allah akbar, Allah akbar..."very loud in my room cause I am on the 4th floor so in front of the speakers from the minaret!!! as i had start sleeping around 0.00AM I was really sleepy...but felt good to hear that cause in france it is forbidden....*snif*
this morning when I opened the window...I finally saw it...take it into pic....so many times I tried but it was too fast too far for me...and then suddently it felt as if I could touch it, capture it, make it mine...the king of birds...an eagle! quietly sitting on the public lamps...at 4th floor level, so right infront of my window!
after my shopping in CP, I had to come back from the station to my hotel...2 roads to chose from? i took one...walked in this market...kafi musulman tha...and felt really good to see all those guys from the little boys to old men in white dress with white cap on their heads and some ladies in the streets with their abayas...I saw people (all male) going out of a masjid after friday prayer...i can't explain how good it felt for me to be there like the first time in my life in a muslim place...i mean all the area was muslim...and i've never been in any muslim country....so i had like frissons all over cause of emotion and happiness.......

last evening I ate at moti mahal restaurant...and had kulfi ...it is open air place, with live qawwali...great, i love kulfi!!!!!!!!!!

dehli agaaaaaaaaaainnnnnnnnnn-Aug 27th, 2005 at 12:17 PM

This morning i took rishaw to Nizamudin shrine....what a deception that ladies are not alowed inside the shrine*mad*....aren't women and men equal acording to islam??? anyway that place was more used by hindus than muslim...so just looking tking pics and then....the last mughal building of dehli built in 18thcentury...wow! gorgeous, another red and white building like humayun tomb but smaller, inside a pretty garden with an alley of ponds surroundede by palmtrees....I really love it...took many many pics...
then i went to lodi garden...very pleasant place where you can chill out in the palm or fragipani shadow, surrounded bu cute squirrels...and there are two old tombs and a former masjid inside...
then i went to the very famous Karim's restaurant..in front of the Jama masjid..the cooking recipes are secrets dating back to the mughal time....they were court cooks from Saudi Arabia orginally...
and ordered chicken Noorjahani...because I am Noor, and people here usually say, noor ooh like Noor Jahan!....delicious!....a real treat the sauce was light green due to some pistachio i guess, and the naan was the most delicious I had tasted here in india...well i rarely eat bread honestly.
After I did some shopping in near Jama masjid: a lota, a namaz carpet, some bracelets, kajal for the eyes, some little medals with coranic inscriptions...the merchant asked me where you from? I said france, he said good, then whats your name I said Noor, he said mashallah...then asked muslim? I said yes..he was then speechless!...I learnt to shop the indian way...with my veil on my face people are less aware I am not indian, so I say " kitne hai?...get an answer in indian, and the price is lower than in english!!! for ex tha medals were do rupae, but five rupees...as indian price was given first to me...i got 5 medals for 10 rupess!!!!!!!!

bargain-Aug 29th, 2005 at 02:36 PM

I was buying again a bottle of water yesterday...12 rupees, but i had no 2 rupees coin so i gave 15 expecting some change but the vendor had not...i was so fed up with those no change answers...so common in India, that i laugh hard saying"no coin you are joking with me??" so he said ok for11 rupees!!...I never bargain that great than when I am upset!
In India, don't be nice or you'll loose money..be rude and you'll be rich!

praying and shopping-Aug 29th, 2005 at 02:46 PM

I went to jama masjid this morning..i was quite surprised to find peoplo feeding pigeons in the courtyard of the masjid...it is digusting...**** and feathers of those animals are dirty...how can that be in a mosque where people are supposed to be clean to pray??
anyway i found most people doing anything else than praying...not very religious atmosphere at all..mostly a tourist place i think, cause it is beautifull and big...that is all...quite disappointing i have to say..
then i finished my shopping in the bazaar, I wanted rose attar..i found it, of course cheaper than in france..
then i couldn't resist buying gold bracelets...because I had bought some cheap fake bangles...but with the sweat they cause my a rash...i am allergic! so only gold for me!...it was really expensive...the funy story is I wanted to buy one bracelet...and thought the price was high...i hesitated thinking i could probabably find better bets in Dubai...but it is a souvenir from india, and i would probably not find the same so... anyway i bought it...but when the jeweller packed it, i discovered that I just had bought 2 bracelets!!!!!!!!!! reason why the price was high!
I am very happy with the kajal i bought 2 days ago....so I bought 2 more to bring home today...one is only 10Rs...which is at least 50 times less than in france!...and desi kajal is so better than western make up..I mean when i try to put these western eyeliner in my eyes, in 1 hour it has gone down on my eyelids, making me looking like an old tired racoon...but desi kajal stays inside the eyes and the color of my eyes is highlited!

last day-Aug 30th, 2005 at 11:04 AM

sad day..it is my lastday in india I am flying bak to Paris tonight, my plane leaves new dehli at 00.35 AM tomorrow morning...so I have checked out my room and put again my sneakers before going out to the cyber cafe, while my luggage are locked somewhere in the hotel...
it is really hot these days in Dehli..but I handle it...38 degrees according to internet...but in france it is 27 at most..so I'll get chilled tomorow...but it will be sunny so at least, I will not lose everything...
this morning i went for my last shopping around the Jama masjid in old dehli...some perfume, some clothes...and i finally found an idea to bring a souvenir to my dad..It is allways difficult for me to buy a present to my dad cause i never know what to buy...so i bought pretty traditional shoes..he could either wear them at home or hanging them somewhere for decoration cause they are really pretty!

home-Aug 30th, 2005 at 01:50 PM

and i am home!...it is now 10o'clock in the morning and i feel like it is not really day..because the light of the sun is so shy...and the home is so cold..outside too..and it is so quite, no noise...no animals and no horns in the streets...i feel alien, hopefully i am listening to some bangra brought from india...
I begun downloading photos on my computer...hopefully I'll post some later...when gupshup solve its uploading issue...
after leaving the cyber cafe yesterday night i had diner...paneer with tomato sauce *miam*, and some chocolate ice cream...first in india...anyway seems that enjoying indian food ain't bad for figure..I lost 3 kilos during these 6 weeks...On the plane I was sitting next to a NRI coming back to NY....
Allah ka shukar, the plane seats seem more and more big to me...so I could stretch my legs up over me to get rid of tiredness and have a good sleep after, so I slept quite well...and this travel seemed quite short to me...but the hour to wait for the suitcaes seems really long!! hamdullilah i have them all...32kg of checked in luggage that i had to carry after in the trains to my home...and especially to my home, because the station is 1km from home and in the valley, while my home is more uphill...a nightmare..my arms got weaker during this trip...so I already did some weight lifting...straight after putting my suitcases in my room....

Paris-Sep 2nd, 2005 at 03:40 PM

did I miss it?...not really...
yesterday i realise how I missed the bright indian sun as the sky was all covered by thick grey clouds...
then i needed to go to Paris to the cybercafe to log on and spend hours on chats...so I was out...again those african guys after me*sigh*rolleyes*...hmmm the good thing about slimming is that i feel so much more healthy, for example i did not feel any jetlag...any tiredness after the travel, I am as fresh as if I had not spend 6 weeks travelling but relaxing on a beach...
the bad thing about slimming is that I need to go shopping for some new and smaller clothes....but i hate it...and also that guys are...well...more numerous after me....and i hate it too...

it has been less then 3 days since i am back home and where did i go today?
hmmm indo-paki area!
bought some garam masala,
cause step mom asked me yesterday,
then went to travel agency to inquire about delays for visa to PK...as I am on holidays till next month why not goint to PK...next week?...cheaper also than in december...
then bought 2 DVD of Bollywood films: Dus and Bunty aur Babli

shopping day-Sep 3rd, 2005 at 05:12 PM

I went shopping...I had seen some nice gold chains to put on some medals I had...so i bought them today....when going to the shopping center...there were 2 lil kids in their gardens...they smiled at me and one said" good morning cat's piss head"(in french)*bummer*...is it cause of my hair color? or he just did not know the meaning....*sigh* kids!!!!!!!!
later i saw the garbage collecting truck...usually I think it stinks and stay as much away from it as i can...but this morning...i thought...ooooh some smelll, I miss smells...from India *cry*...and then i enjoyed smelling that again, khair, I am addicted.....hopefully i'll go to PK soon....

luckily the weather is hot and sunny...I love it, so much...

I bouhgt papaya...I like so much exotic fruits...
and some very light pants in coton, cause PK is still hot in september...yes I had to buy new clothes to fit my slimmer figure...
I bought also another pair of shoes, thought I had bought many in India....because right after getting of the train in a nearby village to shop....one of my shoes broke down*cry*so i had to walk slowly to the next shoe shop....i found very comfy shoes...not bad looking, but soo expensive....
today my dad subscribe to a new unlimited internet offer....so i'll flood from home anytime soon ....tonight and after.....

Paris as a tourist-Sep 5th, 2005 at 04:15 PM

I had a barbecue with my dad, step mom, sis and her bf, yesterday lunch...in the garden, under the shadow of the house...so great!....first time i saw my sister since i was back in france...
then i went to Paris to see a friend from uni...she discovered India movies thanx to me, when watching Kal ho na ho at the cinema with me
Now she is a fan of SRK and mostly Saif Ali Khan (she thinks he is too hadsome) now...so we had a masala cai together...i told her about my trip in India, and my plans for PK...then we walked in a quiet street few miles from North to south untill the Seine banks....looking at pretty monuments...Paris is soooo nice!
But in that streets were a lots of prostitue on the pavement waiting for clients...seems there were more prostitue than people walking in the street....*sigh* well that street though pretty...had a part full of sex shops and exotic dance clubs...so weird area...though it was really empty, cause sunday is off....so we enoyed talking almost alone there...in a clean quiet street...very exotic for me compare to the fuss and dirtiness of India!
We stopped a while talking and looking on a bridge on the Seine...looking at the islands and the cathedrale Notre Dame...then sat close to a fountain...full of bubbly soapy water!
But at the end of the day, i felt pain in my throat and lungs cause of the pollution, and today my voice is close to exctinction...

Apr 4, 2007

flight to pakistan

i had a wonderful sunset over Irak wednesday evening...we were flying downsouth the Tiger valley and the sky was totally red over the horizon...so pretty view...by the time we reached Kuwait it was dark so I saw the lights of the city illuminating the port...
I landed Bahrein finally one hour later. I was transiting few hours there...when I reached the lounge I saw a crowd of guys in salwar qameez and big beards sitting together and thought immediately that these were the guys taking the flight to Peshawar...so i went to sit not far..but not too close, cause only guys...they were also waiting for the gate to be shown on screen before going to boarding area...when most opf them had moved...I did...they looked at me so strangely when they realised I was also taking their plane...lol!
I wanted to board as soon as the annoucement was made, but being one of the two females traveling...was not allowed too! i had to wait...untill the staff arranged both of us to sit not close to men*sight*..anyway i met this young girl Aisha, in long black abaya and niqa traveling back home after 9 years in Bahrein...we chatted english...
at diner time the air hostess was so pleased, she said that we were the only two english speaking people in that flight!...and she added i guess girls are smarter than men!

thursday 15th, my first day in Peshawar

and first meet with guppies!!!!!!!!! So after landing, stamping passport, taking back my checked luggage, I met BM, GS and ASA at the airport..they drove me to the guest house. It is nice, big and in the garden is my favourite tree: a frangipani!
An armed guard is patrolling in front of the guest house...so i dunno if i should feel safe...or in danger, lol...
serioulsy we went to visit the nice university campus and its small archeological museum thereafter...
we went to the afghan refugee camp outside the city...and the atmosphere is out of time! there are small squared clay houses in rows, and smalls shops where men are working, women are passing by wrapped in their burqa and children learn how to catch a truck running....as soon as they are big enough to walk...
We had lunch in a fine restaurant where i met a pashto singer, that i knew from listening intensively to batkhela.com prior to go to peshawar...i tasted brain curry...lol in mad cow countries it is now strictly forbidden...so i consider it a priviledge...and then also some green tea flavoured with cardamon...
at night we went to the market that is a little more crowded after dark...and i enjoyed some typical dish standing at a street stall...
then we met in the street Wran Alak..so went for a nice fresh mango juice somewhere...delicious!!!!!
finally we went to drink some soda flavoured with lemon and black salt....eeeeeeekkkk, that tastes so like rehydration drink taken in India when I was sick....but it was somewhat good anyway...

friday 16th, second day in Pekhawar

so i visited more of the city by car today. I started with the poet mod, who as an artist took me to visit a designer studio. I had ther for the first time a flashy yellow soda drink called "mountain dew"...then we toured the city litterally on the ring road...in gave me the impression that Peshawar...or Pekhawar as people here pronounce it, is very big...but not dense.
It is less crowded than most indian cities, there are less traffic, especially rickshaws. It is also far more clean, because there is less garbage on the streets and very few animals s***ing everywhere and no men peeing in the streets.
In the afternoon I went with ASA and BM in the old market, qisakhwani bazaar, and tour in the small streets, looking at the diverse shops, selling clothes, jewellry, fruits, tea, fish, meat...and we tasted kulfi faluda and kheer in small shops, men are usually sitting outside, while women are hidden inside behind thick curtains. The kulfi was not as good as the one I was enjoying in purani dilli, three weeks ago...but the kheer was better than those i had in India.

friday 16th, second day in Pekhawar

so i visited more of the city by car today. I started with the poet mod, who as an artist took me to visit a designer studio. I had ther for the first time a flashy yellow soda drink called "mountain dew"...then we toured the city litterally on the ring road...in gave me the impression that Peshawar...or Pekhawar as people here pronounce it, is very big...but not dense.
It is less crowded than most indian cities, there are less traffic, especially rickshaws. It is also far more clean, because there is less garbage on the streets and very few animals s***ing everywhere and no men peeing in the streets.
In the afternoon I went with ASA and BM in the old market, qisakhwani bazaar, and tour in the small streets, looking at the diverse shops, selling clothes, jewellry, fruits, tea, fish, meat...and we tasted kulfi faluda and kheer in small shops, men are usually sitting outside, while women are hidden inside behind thick curtains. The kulfi was not as good as the one I was enjoying in purani dilli, three weeks ago...but the kheer was better than those i had in India.

saturday 17th, third day in Pekhawar

I went to Charsade today...Attia aur Sandleen ke lie!!!! so indeed I have some pic of the city and river banks, where we came to eat some fish barbecue. yummmy! there was very nicely decorated baots cruising on the river while playing some nice music..either Bollywood or pashto...
Tonight we had a nice diner on a roof top, with some live pashto music...a nice day...again!

sunday, wedding day

This morning i had the surprise to have the visit of IS bhai, the famous gs flooder...
then i went to a wedding in a village. I loved discovering the simple life if people over there. As a women i could see women dance and sing...and all their nice attires, colored clothes, jewels and mehndi! i even had mehndi done on my hand by the most beautiful women...my first time ever!
We went from the groom house to the bride house where ladies performed their dances...the groom took the bride, then we her finally at her inlaw house....crying! some weapons were fired.
Many women could not englishe or urdu, but the few i talked to were very very friendly, and they all wanted me to come to their houses!
i had a nice day, i won't forget all those nice people soon....

monday, arrival in karachi

I took the plane from peshawar to karachi. I finally the fighting plane based there from the edge of the take off road.
We flew over the nice mountains, and as a former hydrology student i was very interested to look at the rivers patterns from the sky ...trying to figure directions and strength of the flow...
i got off to the luggage claim very quickly and was delighted to get my luggage first then out of the airport someone waved at me...but not someone i expected...anyway I found 3 unkown guppies! DM, Janwar aur Loonatic...later ImranQ joined us...so 4 new guppies met at my arrival, it felt great!
later on i was delighted by my first ever experience of life in a real pakistani house, in the city.
totally different from europe...

Karachi....fun city..nice guppies....1

We had a guppy meet tuesday night, with Seema, Hammad, Janwar, Loonatic, Golden Scorpion, Decent Munda and ImranQ.
We went first to pizza hut to eat a little and begin to chat...my most difficult here is to follow a conversation btw native urdu speakers...i catch words here and there, some gestures...smiles...but the full pictures allways seems very far away in another galaxy..........
hopefully my level of understanding is increasing a lot here in Pakistan!
thereafter we went for a fun bowling party...nice music, very modern dance music, and good lights...it was fun...especially for me cause I am such a desperate case when it comes to play bowling....it was my first time...and i still have no clue how to play *bummer*
then we drove to the seaside..and i enjoyed walking barefeet in the arabian sea, on the nice dark soft sand of karachi beach...

Apr 3, 2007

Karachi....fun city..nice guppies....2

On wednesday, i went to Imran house for lunch..there was a power break at that time, so no elevator and no fan! one have to remind it is 35 in the afternoon to understand what no fan means......
then we went for shopping cause i wanted to buy salwar qameez...again! but it was really annoying cause it seemed nothing was pleasing me...i hate clothes shopping!...finally found something nice...and too expensive...anyway i wanted to have a nice evening then...after some talks in a nice park aith imranQ i went back home....and was really pleased to see that no matter how late it was...still the night was only beginning....so we, ImranQ, DM, koidost, looonatic, Janwar and me, went for diner....after a long drive we saw Mela was closing...around midnight....so we drove on the highway..till a nice open air place, we sat on carpet with cushionsm and had a very tasty diner...yummy! on a big screen was played some clip of bollywood music...
after we drove to the seaside and had lots of fun over there...i got some really funny pics! lol...then we went for a last chai in the city around 5.00AM...then time to sleep....
nights in karachi are soooooooooooo much fun...we had breakfast at 2.00PM today cause...we got up so late after that funfull night

last day in Karachi, thursday 22 sept

We went at the sunset to the port...I looked the nice pinkish light of the setting sun enhanced by reflection on the quiet water...that kind of sweet and warm light makes me feel so good! it was an amazingly pleasant wait before we could take a boat to go to an island, where we enjoyed the beach while the sunlight was disappearing...
i took wonderfull snapshots...from Janwar, DM, Loonatic and koi dost...and they also did cause i'm on some of them

later at night we went Bowling again!!
this time i enjoyed really much cause i finally learnt how to throw the ball thanx to koi dost, who was not there at our guppy meet bowlng session...and discovered i had to pick the heavy ones, not the light ones, in order to get them straight on the path!...
we ended up again on the seaside...had some more golguppay, but they were not good, then some nice qawa, and some interesting chat...

friday 23 sept

i took a plane to peshawar ...say bye to karachi and all the fun and long entertaining nights i had over there..
i was very happy to be back to peshawar, but when the plane was getting down we crossed a thick dark layer of clouds...I saw peshwar and the field around looking wet, and a big wall of rain appraoching our plane...then we went up again and few minutes later the captain told us that due to bad weather we were redirected to islamabad....i was sooooooooooooo sad...wait, wait again to be back to Peshawar
then another annoucment told us we had to go till lahore because weather was bad in islamabad also!
then we reached the nicely built lahore airport...mughal style, like red fort of agra or dehli!
we stayed there a while....finally went back to peshawar when it was night...some 3 hours later than scheduled!

Nowsheera saturday 24th september

We drove to Nowsheera today, we took some very good faluda ice cream in a small shop in the city, before heading to a river.
there we had a nice lunch of grilled fish and chicken, and bread, on the river bank!
we were only disturbed by massive crow crowd...we threw bones at them, and some of them were also on the branches above us...as a result to thank us for the bone one crow sh1tted...on mamba!

Kohat 26th september

We went to Kohat , in the morning, we went to a small hotel there to take tea...with french fries!...weird breakfast!!
then we drove away crossed a tribal zone...very beautiful landscapes of countryside, then reached a lake, tanda dam. When i stepped into these clear green warm water i knew i had to swim...i suplicateBM and ASA to let me bath,arguing that i had a tchador to cover after bathing in salwar qameez...so i did it!swim a bit, with guys telling me to go out of water quick!!
That lake was really pretty, we climbed up a path, so called adventure track!, and took some good shots from up...awesome lake really!
then in the afternoon we went to the village of BM...very pretty quiet place, whose speciality is guava, yummy!
In the guava garden ASA and BM showed their climbing in the trees skills!! but i personaly found more interest in the delicate perfume of the only rose there!

buddhism in pakistan...27th sept

So we went to some buddhist monastery ruins today....a big part of the fun was GS driving and losing the way to that aim...anyway it was fun hearing his punjabi friend talking loud at him, though i did not understand most of what he said...but he seeemed quite sure he would have done better....but we drove a long way along a river and that was great!
then i enjoyed the scenery from that hill where the ruins laid
i saw some bats again! took some shots, then we ate a very unhealthy lunch: biscuits and crisps with soda!...a crisp fell on the ground and many ants ran there to eat it!
on our way back we reached a village where a friend of my friends was living so we visited him. many children were around us looking at us as we were some zoo animals...that was funny!
i was allowed to meet his family, so i saw her pretty european looking wife, and naughty young kids! his mother, the granny of the house, was very strict with kids...far more than all young mum i had seen so far, i guessed granny are autority more than mums in pk

Oct 8th, 2005 at 12:46 AM-return from pak......

I went back from pakistan on the 29th september..actually i left pak on the 28th...
i traveled by road from Peshawar to Islamabad....BM, ASA and a friend of them came along so the long road was fun!
We stopped on the wey in a small place to have tea, and some nicely decorated trucks stopped there, so I took some shots especially for truckdriver...lolfinally we arrived in islamabad, i thought it looked like some alpine valley cities cause of the pine trees and muntains in background..but more americanised, cause of the large streets and modern buildings...it seems to be a nice city but i was there just a few hours...
I met again by chance Wran Alak...first and last days in pak, i met that guppy by chance!....th world is small, so small!
and I finally met barbie!! what a cute meeting!...i really like that guppan...
then i had to go back home....i hated it, can't write about it cause too painfull, i cried so much when i left...couldn't stop crying...i wrote a poem to get rid of my sorrow, before entering the plane....http://www.paklinks.com/gs/showthread.php?t=194659

buddhism in pakistan...27th sept

Apr 2, 2007

Nov 13th, 2005 at 09:46 PM

i put my blue jean, and my japanese coat on, then my loved sneakers.... i should call them flying shoes......
I got out and as I them on i began to fly, as usual, my feet barely touched the ground as those magic shoes made me run and jump...and fly over the asphalt and the earth...

ever experienced so intensely the mere daily shopping for food at the market?

I looked at me in the mirror before going out...and those matching gold hair and ray on the jacket let me wonder...are you back european girly?...yes i guess, falling leaves and chilly cold wind brung me back to the roots, I'm the wandering wild free once again.

Nov 15th, 2005 at 11:54 PM

It is frightening......I had never felt that before....this missing feeling......this attraction
I had never realised during my whole stay in India and Pakistan how much english language had taken space in my brain......being stuck in france, i have to talk and write and read most materials at school, with friends and family in french....so after few weeks i realised how much I missed english...... i crave for english! as soon as i can i plunge into english mag, net or book, I do it........and when i get to talk to english with someone I won't quit untill the other force me too!!!!.........
i feel so lonely, that almost no one else actually can good english over here around me.........

Dec 15th, 2005 at 11:19 PM- thought of the day

everything in life is dangerous because when you are born you are bound to die

May 27th, 2006 at 04:55 PM - water miracle

One of the most desertic region of Rajasthan recovered 5 rivers due to the hard work of villlagers.
They digged water collectors and dams at the bottom of hills to gather rain water. Then water can infiltrate into the soil and make the watertable rise, giving birth to rivers that had disapeared.
Disappeared? yes an old man from this region (80years old) told the initiator of the project Rajendra Singh about this ancestral technique to fight against desertification and increase irrigation opportunities. But the old man said that after independance villagers got divided by elections and forgot to work together on water projects and rivers disappeared, transforming the region in an almost desert and forcing young men to work in factories in towns.

Source : Geo juin2005, "Le rajasthan se remet au vert"

I found that news extremely interesting for 2 reasons:

-fisrt it clearly shows the limit of political democracy. I mean political democracy is an invitation to division, and therefore a big brake to collective work. BUT collective work is needed to maintain good quality of life and good social relationaship within a community. hence political democracy is not favoring human developpement.
-second it clearly shows the extremely negative impacts of colonization on rural communities in the third worl during the second half of the twentieth century. At this time colonial powers such as UK and France received the "moral and economical support" from the USA. USA kept on the colonization process over poor famers minds, especially through TV and radio extension even among poor countrisides. These colonial powers imposed their views about agriculture and land managment on local farmers and led to ecologiacal disaster, because western engineers and scientists were not MORE clever than dozens of century old techniques used localy to better life in hard climatic environements.

Jun 3rd, 2006 at 06:18 PM-war and warcrimes, no differences

anyone who think that war is a pc game is a child!
anyone who think that war can be conducted without such barbarian acts is nothing more but a daydreamer!
utopia are bad for health (look what happened to USSR, and other marxist daydreamer!)

high hopes are noble, but human nature is not noble!

there are laws because human like to do the opposite!

it is not possible to make war without having rapes, torture, and mass killing of innocents, because it's in the human nature, and soldiers are human!

maybe we should have only robots in army, that day i will still be in doubt because robots are made by human anyways

music as a drug- Jun 9th, 2006 at 04:05 PM

it's maybe the 6th time in a row i listen to that song "island" from Heather Nova

she sings like a siren in this song

i feel like in a ocean of nostalgia

this waves of bitterhappiness overwhelmes me

and i feel like writing me, naked and openhearted over there

i am not Noor, i have no name

I am a cameleon, i fit in the landscape, and change name and identity depending on the environment

and i have no other self identity than those words i am gonna lay in following posts

Jun 9th, 2006 at 04:14 PMeurope- my country!

I am a european
I was born and raised here
My ancestors are all rooted to that beatifull and wealthy land
When i utter a word it's most likely to be in a language belonging to my forfathers land, be it english, german, french, or norwegian....apart from some urdu and pashto, i rarely speak something not european

basicallly i hate the same things in europe than america, and love the same things about europe as about america, with some light differences

love: the long summer nights ,dark blue, the long pink sunsets, the low winter midday sun, the scientific knowledge, the technological improvements of life, the freedom

hate: mass media, the communication wars, the pollution, the technological dependance, the narowmindness (€, £, $=value),decaying people

Jun 9th, 2006 at 05:29 PM-wild call

i have allways dreamed of perfumed flowers, swinging greenery and crystal clear sea

I have allways preferred the company of plants and birds to annoying fellows

i have allways listened to my basic needs and instincts
i have allways annoyed people by my careless attitude

how can i be happy, more happy than them? cause nothing is so serious, everything is easy when you don't think too much

i like to go back to basics and explain anything at a simple level, by taking easy steps to get to more complex issues later, i discovered a while it was math principle, and got suddenly more friend to that past hated subject.

As i am primitive i am happy as long as my BASIC needs are satisfied, nothing more (two first level of maslow pyramid).

BUt i'm extremely hatefull towards the people who threaten my basic survival: all those who like to poison my air (car drivers) and try to killed me (not only me other member of my family), because they are too lazy to move their a$$es.
I am proud t have a fat a$$ cause most people with slim a$$ are too lazy to move it, at least mine is full of strong muscle that makes me get in the train faster than those techno dependant fashinable slim muscleless a$$es

true i don't like people who replace the grass where i love to sit for a meditation and lay for a nap by asphalt

i don't give a damn about cultural norms, i know how to learn them and repeat them like a parrot, which people like, but i don't respect them in my heart they mean nothing to me but jail

i hate this cultural stuff that makes human , human, cause i'm deep inside still an animal, wild and free, and when i'm jailed in a zoo i feel a little weird

i have hoped and prayed, to be and still be the same over and over again, and to never loose my mind after "growing up"
i was careless smart child full of dreams, and now i am a careless smart grown up full of dreams...so i am human for real, cause these dreams are benchmark of my humanity, but i just like to keep it simple.

i can like all those things that humans make to make their lives "meaningfull", "fullfilling", "less brong"

but i am a wild animal, and like all wild animal, i travel, migrate, so i don't OWN much. ownership is not much valued to me, and things we gather all along the way are best kept preciously, not wasted.
the materialistic civilisation built by marketers makes me sick
people who chase materialist stuff can't understand me, and i can't understand them, we are aliens to each others.

Jun 9th, 2006 at 05:48 PM- my feel good secret

what to do to feel better instantly?

look for the most intense light around and look at it
take my pocket mirror out of wherever it is
look at my eyes, its green shade, like grass, leaves and hope
look at my eyes its little brown stains, like trees, cause i'm a forest lady and my eyes reflect it
i love my eyes, and i feel good to have them

Jun 20th, 2006 at 09:12 PM- doubts, inauguration of museum in paris today

again and again
more and more
like an endless well
like a pierced water purse

nothing is sure, human brain like soldi truth
but it does not exist
the more we know
the more we know that there is more that we ignore!

but the more we know, the more we are free to assess relative strenght of hypothesis, one against each other

staying on the edge of the least uncertain possibility is how i would define modern knowledge
but we should be carefull not to look down upon old wisdom, as primitives usually know far more about life and its necessities than average citizen of "modern world"

Today Mr Jaques Chirac our president inaugurated a nice buikding with gardens close to Eiffel Tower: musuem for "primitive arts"(musée des arts premiers), a museum for arts from all continents except europe....yeah some people still think everyone but us (europeans) are "primary/primitive".... *sic*

but extermination of cutural diversity has been the obsession of white men since colomb discovered america...
so now like endangered species in zoo, they are caged in museum!
how pathetic

the core thought: "cultural diversity is a threat to globalised markets and economy", europeans have known it for centuries, far before words like globalisation was invented, the concept of world trade was associated to colonisation AND missionaries. Why? because they have known for long that to sell their (useless) products to "native" people they needed to create the need for it by converting them to their culture, so they brang priests and explained how holy and pure was their mission towards these poor people who never had a nice life before them *sight*
that is marketing far before the term was invented!

it makes me think about the first urge from american workers in afghanistan after advising women to get free from burqa: seeling them false lashes and mascara ...

Jun 24th, 2006 at 05:45 PM - 15 years

today it has been 15 years since my mother dies

i can't believe so much time has gone

Jul 14th, 2006 at 02:17 PM-what's right and what's wrong

it's difficult to tell which things to do, what's right and wrong, some people allways trying to attract you to "their"side of good and wrong, but usually you realise that they are only using you to get what they want :money, power, fame....

what's right is even becoming a marketing tool, for example "ethical funds" which pretend to invest your money only in some ethic companies, or "islamic banks" which pretend to respect islam teachings, "natural prducs" which pretend not to use chemicals, "green fuel" which pretend not to harm environement, etc....

this world is a shark pool, we pure souls are dolphins trying to get out of here without being torn in bloody pieces of meat....

we should not listen to the sirens of power, money and fame

Jul 15th, 2006 at 04:06 PM- circular thoughts

i was told long ago that the difference btw western people and some eastern or so called "primitive" people, regarding life concepts, was that western do think life is linear...while eastern, primitves, think it is a cycle
ideaologically, i'm a cycle viewer, not for linear time frame, or i would say i'm a combiner!

i do think there is a linear time frame AND cycles going on at the same time....helicoidal time, like DNA....mere coincidence, na?

A circular definition is one that assumes a prior understanding of the term being defined.
circular definition are best suited to modelised cycles....hence well founded definitions may fall short to get something out of a cyclic thingy....and what' more cyclic than short term time frame...just like human lifespan....
yeah time is linear when viewed from long disctance: millions years...
but viewed too closely it looks cyclic....hence evolution theory is hard to prove when we are glued to a cyclic time frame....only when we get farther and farther from helicoid of times can we detect the linear component of time....

Sep 9th, 2006 at 10:45 AM-evils

people wanna own and show off ........;that's all they want;

thinking, sharing, caring and loving are so out of fashion...

western world, and its world extent is so weird

Sep 10th, 2006 at 06:38 PM-week end

my idea of a really nice week end:

spending afernoon laying on the grass of my garden, taking a nap while listening to the water pond stream.....

looking at the sun glowing on the grass , the flowers: roses, lotus

and reading a good book with pashto music in my ears

Nov 18th, 2006 at 09:44 PM- life is wonderfull

I had a wonderfull day!
no i did not do anything specxial, i only bought a pair of shoes

but it was a sum of simple short and sudden meetings with old acquainances and newcomers in my life that made the day so nice...together with a glowing sun, blue sky, red and orange leaves on trees

well i am in good shape, feeling well these days, so even the most insignificant hapiness moment can make a day, a wonderfull day.

it's the way i seee things...everything is nice , so i am happy!

Dec 17th, 2006 at 09:57 PM- to beer or not to beer :D

So i remembered few days ago that my hair was sooooo beautifull when i lived in england...but then i realised that i used to drink regurlarly beer over there....and that beer yeast is well known to help hair growth...

so i wonder should i drink beer often to get my extra long hair back?

Dec 27th, 2006 at 10:53 PM-I have to

keeeeeeeeeeeep on running to life, i should not run away from life no more...i have to face what i refused to face in the past, and i must finish now what i left undonei must be courageous now!!

Dec 17th, 2006, 10:08 PM
attracting features in a guy's face: small mouth with cute pink lips, big brown eyes, long nose, sweet hairless skin

and bodywise: very thin, very tall, and nice smell !!

yeah i do care about look...who says you are not suposed to touch/look at your guy?

Jan 1st, 2007 at 12:52 AM-time to close the 2006 book page

oye oye 2006 is dead long life to 2007

last year i wrote:

"new year may be time for good resolutions, but it is also time to look at the last year and dress a conclusion: 2005 has been by far the most beautifull year of my life, and by far!
i enjoyed more sun and more snow than ever...not only due to travel, but to some odd climatic change over here!

i used to think intelligence and knowledge are a heavy burden to weigh ...
but i discovered it was a bliss...and a gift, the most usefull in ones life.

I discovered some people who share my thoughts and emotions

I discovered the world is yours only if you're ready to get it, full of beautifull things only if you are strong enough to handle them"

About 2006 i don't know...it's been tough at times, delight at others...but i've been trying to hide myself and destroy myself........until i drowned so much i exploded in a last blast of strife for life.

I lacked the will for life most of 2006, but since 2 months i'm back to life and i have already started to live by 2007 resolutions:
- get a well paid job
- like and be liked by your colleagues
- get a flat
- keep in touch with friends and don't treat them like tissue papers
- try to find a MAN, one I want, and not one people want me to have
and this year ended well cause HE was the only one to call me for happy new year wish...though working the whole day (everyday!!)

Jan 3rd, 2007 at 09:38 PM-urbanite

When I hear this song i feel like jumping around
When I see this blue sky and low light, I feel like living forever
I love Asia cause I’m a dreamer
And dreams start in winter
When sky is pink at dawn
Fire sun rises to the East
Just like my heart belongs to Asia

I am a city girl, I walk all around shopping stones
I am a urban girl, I run and jump in out from tubes
I love this city because of the skylines
The rise to the sky like trees
I live in a forest of steel and glass

Jan 8th, 2007 at 10:52 PM -merely an observer

i felt it could not be possible
but ia m really what he meant: a distant observer deprived of feelings, lacking emotional involvment
i don't have any culture, any roots
I observe, I ponder and think...but i do not feel belonging to any of those human culture...nor would i have the will to do
they all have nice and ugly faces...

Jan 13th, 2007 at 08:51 PM-our community

We are young , we are quick, we are strong, we are brilliant, we fear nothing....we are....hmmmm, we are a select community, called the 10% (of most clever people)

We love to test everyone, just to guess if only you could be part of our club...cause it's not written on our face.
We love to stay hanged to each other for hours talking about politics, philosophy, sociology, history, sciences, technology, IT, linguistics, ethnology, etc....
any petty thing is used by our quick brains to start a hot discussion on the necessity of judgment and relative meaning of moral norms...
But most important, we LOVE each others a lot, lot, lot...more I could ever have imagined! So i love to meet YOU! and allways look out for more of us......
We live life in a way others can't think.
Our power to move in life is BRAIN, and intellectual stimuli, excitment to think, feel and match up new ideas, discover the world and people around.
Yet anyone around us wonder why are we single, but really that kind of intellectual excitment, our arrogance, our assertivness, make us usually prefer our own companies to anyone else, but when we are together we can't do anything else but talk and think, cause it's just the way we are wired

dedicated to young NYC genius