Sep 20, 2017

Warrior

I've let my guard down
I've let old habits die off
I've forgotten bitterness and anger
Work harder, fall hard and jump back up
Pain fades away, memories last a lifetime

I've stripped my beliefs off
I've embraced fortune, in tune
I'm wrapped in air against danger
Work harder, fall hard and jump back up
Pain fades away, memories last a lifetime

Sep 15, 2017

Pandora box

Under trouble I put a lid on my clear sight,
You opened a Pandora box, and I'm still exploring.

I used to envy that friend who recalled developing several level of thinking at once, and wished I was smarter. I was hoping it would bring me some higher power or let me know some mysteries that would lead me to better life and happiness.
However now that I'm there contemplating various level of consciousness at the same time, it spoils some moments because I catch my mind guessing what's next before it happens, my mind rushes into the future before my heart can handle the feelings and all I can do is sit and watch internally all my thoughts, the thoughts about my thoughts and feelings about primary and secondary thoughts unfold.
I read people's mind within 10 seconds of catching their sight, I guess their words before they open their mouths, even online I guess peoples mood and see into their issues before they open up about it, I have already thought the solution before I get the question, it's all going too fast, too soon.
It's like I'm high, and so I align with artists who have smoked weed just by listening to their music, and slow the flow of my mind narrative to get opportunity to catch my thoughts before they vanish under a pile of newer thoughts, and I write, to remember, recombine and relieve.

And I dance, I sing and I run to ground myself in the orgasms I get from my muscles, and the weird pain which I enjoy in these tiny fractures when I push myself to get stronger and more flexible, ever again.
As well as my mind rushes fast forward, so are my legs and fingers faster, and my senses sharper, sweets get too sweet, foul smells stink harder, everyday beauties shine brighter. And my love grows stronger.

Sep 11, 2017

The swamp


I can't see the end of my running path
Lost in the trees
I can't hear the trouble from the city
Lost in the wind
I cant feel the pain of aches
Lost in perseverance
I wanna hear your whispers
I wanna see your prayers
I feel like a doll in your arms
My sweet darlings, green smartest aliens
You are using us, ever done, ever will
And when we're over the burning task
You'll grow your roots over us and feed
I can wait your answer over a lifetime
but
I can't see the end of my running path
Lost in the swamp

Sep 8, 2017

Crystal cries

What's in your crystal eyes?
Are these my future cries?
You look like a former demon
Replaying my nightmares in 3D
He faked your style and no smile
I can't hold on to your poker face
I'm hooked on your blue neck veins
I know the meaning and I'm staying
Just one last time, I promise I won't dine
I'm placing the puzzle and you squared
I see those possibles and I'm scared

What's in your crystal eyes?
Are these my future cries?
You walk like a fragile alien
Remastering my old dreams in colors
He played your talent and easy charms
I can not want you near you are too dear
I'm hooked on your blue arm veins
I know the feeling and I'm longing
Just one more time, you say you won't shine
I'm facing the hurdle and you removed
I see the time forecast and I'm moved



Sep 5, 2017

Ink

Sea was ink black, warmer than the air
Warping my thoughts in cosiness
Just as hundred clouds painting
Fifty shades of gray in the sky
Both mirrors and touches, a pair
Fused body and soul in stillness
Sensual dance towards you aiming

Aug 30, 2017

Cycles


And roll the sea, melons and all feelings
They're vanishing with shoring waves
Immaterial flow of hopes and distrust
Only in the darkest nights can we see stars
Only in the sadest times can we feel paths


And stroll the forest, pines and all dreamings
They're cascading with various heights
Illusory copies of greatness and pride
Only in the clearest sky can we guess milky way
Only in the slowest pace can we find ourselves

xx

Aug 29, 2017

Hurt

I'm magnetized by your stare
Neither younger nor richer me could snare
Yet your neck hypnotizes my eyes
I'm liquefied by your smiles

What makes me stronger is my dope
Your blunt and hurt I know I can cope
I seek the higher, hardest goal
I feel you can throw me to that bowl

Infinitely dark eyes like open sea
Sweetly haunting my sleepless nights
The flower tint of your cheeks
Flawlessly echoing the blush from your sights

xx


Vague


Tout ce que je ressens 
Vers le haut me descend
J'ignore ce que je pressens
La vérité éclate douce amère
Comme les tomates de mer
qu'on déguste en fiers
La douceur de moi m'éloigne
Alors que la dureté me soigne
Ni la boue ni les ronces n'empoignent
On vogue vers l'inconnue connexion
Surpuissance et prémonition des émotions
Débranche la matrice, déconexion
Faire comme les autres ou attendre
Continuer le strip tease et apprendre
Danser vers l'équilibre et suprendre

xx

Aug 17, 2017

Tsunami

If my dream is your eyes
My nightmare is your silence
Your words released an emotional tsunami
I shivered and all fluids left me emptied
Ready for a mind shift and blown away heart
Learning from the mirror you hold to my face
You walk the right path so I try and run behind
Sometimes I stumble and lose sight
It leaves a sidereal void between my life sparks
yet I keep fighting to better myself
I love you so deeply but joyfully
Your face is an open book, a shy smile
I just look up at the stars and you stand still

Aug 3, 2017

Storm


This guitar is a vessel that makes me
Sail the seas of my dreams wide awake
You turned my world to a monsoon storm
Ravishing my heart for a higher purpose
You call me home and I turn a deaf ear
I wanna curl here and far, hide and seek
You make me sick to my stomach
I ache and shiver but tears don't fall
As I strive to unfurl the mysteries at play
I feel like running away in the moist woods
And softly lay looking at the moon and stars

xx

Jul 30, 2017

Belated Babe


My gut feels as if you're butterfly
I know you are fleeting splendor
And to my heart you're bull's eye
I can see your pain and your anger
As if your wrinkles erased your smile
No one has to endure alone ever
Hug and fight wiser than a juvenile
If my highs went faster I'll get closer
Not until I can hold your stares with glee
If your thighs got tighter, we'll swear stronger
Til next summer buzz cute and work like a bee


xx

Jul 13, 2017

Sorrow's exile

Your eyes are my ice bucket challenge
Am I allowed to drown in for a change?
Effortlessly you stretched your hand
Promised me your dreams with a smile
Radiated wise energy, sorrow's exile
From tonight on shines a mystic wand
Where do we meet? a constellation
Bringing consciousness where lazy minds sleep
Pouring kindness on sore hearts that weep
Tirelessly lighting the fire is your mission


xx

Jul 10, 2017

Old master


There's something broken in you
I can feel it on your uneven face
There's something broken in you
That sorrow I want to embrace
I'd like to know why and heal
I won't rip off your mask yet
Let it slide at my feet, unreal
There's something broken in you
You can not lie to me, reveal

xx


Searching for peace on a piano touch, and sliding into introspective mood under the full moon.
Life is both awesome and troublesome.

I crave people who know what they do and do what they know. Knowledge is an antidote to conditioning. It may mean a full stop to dreams until we recreate them around the last dead end.


Jan 31, 2017

Subliminal

Can you feel both side of your brain at the same time?
Consciously focusing on abstract wording on one hand
And innerly visualizing colorful emotions on another
Subliminal consciousness for your abstraction crave

The exhilaration of traveling was turned into mourning
It is a mix of pain and sadness at seeing land dying
And peaceful satisfaction of knowing true as always
It lingers too long on the soul that quiet crying
Speaking like millennial trees I learned the old ways



Trust no one but your gut if you forget then smell
Like the cat who doesn't know Coriolis and gravity
Like a chameleon who doesn't know lights spectrum 
We don't need fools nor gurus to feed and heal