Aug 17, 2011
Sweet blog why have I been away for so long? I missed you, and now I wanna hug you, kiss you, or fuck u too!
Am I out of mind? not at all. But as I have altered the chemical load in my veins, so did my brain switched to a maler side of me.
Actually without birth control pill, nor stress induced cortisol, my androgenes are spiking, then my inner mind simply blows away. All my emotions are stronger, my feelings wilder and my tastes radically different.
There is no such thing as "me", I am not who I think I was. I am not at all.
The delusion of self is actually shattered by swinging wants.
I don't even need no more what I used to (food, make up, men), but what I used not to need (sex, sex & sex).
It feels like I'm a teen, with hormones boiling my thoughts down to instincts, but I'm old enough to know I only have to let things cool a bit later (fingers crossed). Maybe I'm gonna be grown up one day, or not?