Sep 20, 2017

Warrior

I've let my guard down
I've let old habits die off
I've forgotten bitterness and anger
Work harder, fall hard and jump back up
Pain fades away, memories last a lifetime

I've stripped my beliefs off
I've embraced fortune, in tune
I'm wrapped in air against danger
Work harder, fall hard and jump back up
Pain fades away, memories last a lifetime

Sep 15, 2017

Pandora box

Under trouble I put a lid on my clear sight,
You opened a Pandora box, and I'm still exploring.

I used to envy that friend who recalled developing several level of thinking at once, and wished I was smarter. I was hoping it would bring me some higher power or let me know some mysteries that would lead me to better life and happiness.
However now that I'm there contemplating various level of consciousness at the same time, it spoils some moments because I catch my mind guessing what's next before it happens, my mind rushes into the future before my heart can handle the feelings and all I can do is sit and watch internally all my thoughts, the thoughts about my thoughts and feelings about primary and secondary thoughts unfold.
I read people's mind within 10 seconds of catching their sight, I guess their words before they open their mouths, even online I guess peoples mood and see into their issues before they open up about it, I have already thought the solution before I get the question, it's all going too fast, too soon.
It's like I'm high, and so I align with artists who have smoked weed just by listening to their music, and slow the flow of my mind narrative to get opportunity to catch my thoughts before they vanish under a pile of newer thoughts, and I write, to remember, recombine and relieve.

And I dance, I sing and I run to ground myself in the orgasms I get from my muscles, and the weird pain which I enjoy in these tiny fractures when I push myself to get stronger and more flexible, ever again.
As well as my mind rushes fast forward, so are my legs and fingers faster, and my senses sharper, sweets get too sweet, foul smells stink harder, everyday beauties shine brighter. And my love grows stronger.

Sep 11, 2017

The swamp


I can't see the end of my running path
Lost in the trees
I can't hear the trouble from the city
Lost in the wind
I cant feel the pain of aches
Lost in perseverance
I wanna hear your whispers
I wanna see your prayers
I feel like a doll in your arms
My sweet darlings, green smartest aliens
You are using us, ever done, ever will
And when we're over the burning task
You'll grow your roots over us and feed
I can wait your answer over a lifetime
but
I can't see the end of my running path
Lost in the swamp

Sep 8, 2017

Crystal cries

What's in your crystal eyes?
Are these my future cries?
You look like a former demon
Replaying my nightmares in 3D
He faked your style and no smile
I can't hold on to your poker face
I'm hooked on your blue neck veins
I know the meaning and I'm staying
Just one last time, I promise I won't dine
I'm placing the puzzle and you squared
I see those possibles and I'm scared

What's in your crystal eyes?
Are these my future cries?
You walk like a fragile alien
Remastering my old dreams in colors
He played your talent and easy charms
I can not want you near you are too dear
I'm hooked on your blue arm veins
I know the feeling and I'm longing
Just one more time, you say you won't shine
I'm facing the hurdle and you removed
I see the time forecast and I'm moved



Sep 5, 2017

Ink

Sea was ink black, warmer than the air
Warping my thoughts in cosiness
Just as hundred clouds painting
Fifty shades of gray in the sky
Both mirrors and touches, a pair
Fused body and soul in stillness
Sensual dance towards you aiming