I've felt in a vitamin bottle, as a genie in the bottle, could you deliver my brain from this euphoric state?
I've felt in a sour and bitter potion, that tears my appetite from large to nothing. I feel anything hard to swallow, is it from the salty tears?
I'm struck by the thickness and weight of the air, as if suddenly all the surroundings had turned into a giant aquarium, where i'm the whale, In jail turning around, a motion without progress.
I'm stuck in a circle thinking, a loop where anything sounds and seems like a nightmare, although, I can see the shining glitter of a star filtering from a hole in my bad ideas.
The evanescence of my evaporating body image reflects the shadow of larger clothes, but the veil is slipping down, and a stronger muscular identity jump higher to catch opportunities to dream longer and wider.
The arrow missed the target, and the circle of life is broken...
May 26, 2007
May 25, 2007
one endless day
I got aroundup 5AM, I had such a nice early talk today, I had in mind somethings, but discovered much more interesting things...and i have been thinking about these topics all day...
Lifestyles and relationships...I realised how my choices were so far from the usual "suburban family model life", mine were more those of the alternative urbans, single, partying, free, and environement friendly.
I have allways felt special for her, strangely she came just the day before, or I may have felt I needed to see her, and feel that I liked her tatoo. I may love more her views about "no children, we are too many on the planet"!!
I took time for myself, alone with my thoughts, enjoying the day, fueled by my early talk with my soul mate. I'm reading currently this philosophy book about relationships, the more I reead, the more I know I'm not supposed to be ashamed of my feelings. But I won't open my heart too early to anyone, these thoughts are too precious to be spoilt! So I shared my excitment about a quote with my dear philosophe friend, he disagreed as usual...he's not a soul mate, but my opposite mate! I feel bound anyhow, we need each other to make our thoguhts eveolved and richer. I guess no one can be complete without others. I felt so light and uplifted the full day, men have been staring a lot at me; because that pleasure on my face could be read as I enjoyed some nice long sex night! true thinking can be the orgasm by ideas...But as a woman whose feminine attraction am I trying to reach in the search of oceanic feeling? my lost mother, or my narcissic self? I guess we're fused, same smile, same long hair, same blond hair. Am I not called her name somtimes? ya...
but the evening was weirdest: i got an email from my bf, telling me it's over.I was on phone with a friend, she tried to talk to make think about somthing diferent, but that could not help.As I was crying too much I stopped talking, and chatted online.Then this friday i had 4 male friends online, and hopefully they all supported me! No, guys are not that bad...It's just our expectations that can't be met, and it's deceiving soon. I placed too many hopes on only one person that I didn't know so well.
I analysed the situation quickly, but i have already a key to understand. My world is full of interactions, I live by and for my ideas, they are fed through meetings, and feelings, this fuels and is fueled by my curiosity.This is rather cheap (except travels somtimes), and that can't be bought, so money has a poor value to me, but time is a core and precious element of my life, the most time i devote to an activity or a person, the more that means for me. I expect friends to be the same, and devote time to me as a proof of their interest in me. But his core values was social status, and money, these are foreign concept for me! So we could not understand each other to the core anyway, attraction is blind, but it doesn't last long..especially for some tired busy people! but i guess i'm still too young to feel it!
I remember someone told me, only those people who never experienced moeny problems could feel as free toward money as I do...true, I've never had any problem, because as soon as I feel money could be a problem, I automaticall adjust y lifestyle to a poorer one, but as I believe more in people, this is not a problem for me!
So I woke up at 5AM...but it's already 1.40AM the next day, and I haven't slept! I have had only a light diner too!(one avocado), so this day is unforgetable, totally unfogetable, it doesn't seem to end, and i forgot m primary needs, to my ideas. I'll go to sleep, shut down my brain for a while, and hope tomorow won't be too much disappointing!
Lifestyles and relationships...I realised how my choices were so far from the usual "suburban family model life", mine were more those of the alternative urbans, single, partying, free, and environement friendly.
I have allways felt special for her, strangely she came just the day before, or I may have felt I needed to see her, and feel that I liked her tatoo. I may love more her views about "no children, we are too many on the planet"!!
I took time for myself, alone with my thoughts, enjoying the day, fueled by my early talk with my soul mate. I'm reading currently this philosophy book about relationships, the more I reead, the more I know I'm not supposed to be ashamed of my feelings. But I won't open my heart too early to anyone, these thoughts are too precious to be spoilt! So I shared my excitment about a quote with my dear philosophe friend, he disagreed as usual...he's not a soul mate, but my opposite mate! I feel bound anyhow, we need each other to make our thoguhts eveolved and richer. I guess no one can be complete without others. I felt so light and uplifted the full day, men have been staring a lot at me; because that pleasure on my face could be read as I enjoyed some nice long sex night! true thinking can be the orgasm by ideas...But as a woman whose feminine attraction am I trying to reach in the search of oceanic feeling? my lost mother, or my narcissic self? I guess we're fused, same smile, same long hair, same blond hair. Am I not called her name somtimes? ya...
but the evening was weirdest: i got an email from my bf, telling me it's over.I was on phone with a friend, she tried to talk to make think about somthing diferent, but that could not help.As I was crying too much I stopped talking, and chatted online.Then this friday i had 4 male friends online, and hopefully they all supported me! No, guys are not that bad...It's just our expectations that can't be met, and it's deceiving soon. I placed too many hopes on only one person that I didn't know so well.
I analysed the situation quickly, but i have already a key to understand. My world is full of interactions, I live by and for my ideas, they are fed through meetings, and feelings, this fuels and is fueled by my curiosity.This is rather cheap (except travels somtimes), and that can't be bought, so money has a poor value to me, but time is a core and precious element of my life, the most time i devote to an activity or a person, the more that means for me. I expect friends to be the same, and devote time to me as a proof of their interest in me. But his core values was social status, and money, these are foreign concept for me! So we could not understand each other to the core anyway, attraction is blind, but it doesn't last long..especially for some tired busy people! but i guess i'm still too young to feel it!
I remember someone told me, only those people who never experienced moeny problems could feel as free toward money as I do...true, I've never had any problem, because as soon as I feel money could be a problem, I automaticall adjust y lifestyle to a poorer one, but as I believe more in people, this is not a problem for me!
So I woke up at 5AM...but it's already 1.40AM the next day, and I haven't slept! I have had only a light diner too!(one avocado), so this day is unforgetable, totally unfogetable, it doesn't seem to end, and i forgot m primary needs, to my ideas. I'll go to sleep, shut down my brain for a while, and hope tomorow won't be too much disappointing!
May 24, 2007
slowly, madly, deeply
I'm loosing sleep, loosing appetite....getting too much excited about new projects, while I'm burying old feelings...
I am faithless but full of hopes for a future where dreams have no limit...
The more I age the younger my friends are...as my passions can't get extinct. My free travelling mind escapes the harsh realities of consumerist life
I discover more and more the imperious want of you, and him, and her, and me!
I do love this world, when the days seem to have no end, and my eyes turn green to the golden sun
There is a sweet breeze, cute memories of you and a soft touch in this summer air, but somehow my heart cries alone at night when I listen to a sad song, I cant help but feeling my tears forming in the corner of my eyes, though i'm too shy to drop them, i swallow salty water, not to show my sorrrow.
I don't know who I love, nor what love; is but I feel the pain of missing you.
I am faithless but full of hopes for a future where dreams have no limit...
The more I age the younger my friends are...as my passions can't get extinct. My free travelling mind escapes the harsh realities of consumerist life
I discover more and more the imperious want of you, and him, and her, and me!
I do love this world, when the days seem to have no end, and my eyes turn green to the golden sun
There is a sweet breeze, cute memories of you and a soft touch in this summer air, but somehow my heart cries alone at night when I listen to a sad song, I cant help but feeling my tears forming in the corner of my eyes, though i'm too shy to drop them, i swallow salty water, not to show my sorrrow.
I don't know who I love, nor what love; is but I feel the pain of missing you.
Apr 6, 2007
a pink cry
When I hear that old song
Little pearls arose on my cheeks
Those pink dunes are wet
As a desert rarely showered
Then flowers bloom in my heart
I wish to sent bunches of them
Every morning of you life
To scent it up with grace
I may intoxicate you
But my frangance is less strong
Than your attraction
Dec 20th, 2005, 01:22 AM
Little pearls arose on my cheeks
Those pink dunes are wet
As a desert rarely showered
Then flowers bloom in my heart
I wish to sent bunches of them
Every morning of you life
To scent it up with grace
I may intoxicate you
But my frangance is less strong
Than your attraction
Dec 20th, 2005, 01:22 AM
overcloud dream
Who needs a heart when the world belongs to us
Now that you turn my brain in a happiness factory
The sun shines again over my hood and life
I ride ever more freely where the butterflies go
All lips are sweet but not as unhealthy as candy
Everywhere the wind swings hair
Everywhere sun kisses my sight
Everywhere planes overtake clouds
Your face as cold as a pure crystal sculpure
Frozen in white and blue eternity of death
These colors strangely attract me on the ice
Was I ever looking for your sharp glance
But that day is memorial
Deep written in my souvenirs
No regret nor forgetness
Jan 2nd, 2006, 02:46 PM
Western hate
To all those I hate
I hereby say why
I wished your death
Aware you could
have killed me then
My wonders turn to anger
Why did you spare us
Else we could have enjoyed
Promised eternal delights
Instead of CNN staring
At this endless nightmare
What a cruel waste
You made of our pure world
Looked for my green land
But it is under thick trashes
Those burnt evidence ashes
Long swept by the wind
You built your malls
On our bison bones
So much death still alive
On hate don't arise peace
My testimony I am not guilty
But the blood in my vein
Tell me I cried in vain
Cause you're forever villain
Historical backlashes
Can't even teach you
To clean your a$$es
Jul 11th, 2005, 11:52 AM
I hereby say why
I wished your death
Aware you could
have killed me then
My wonders turn to anger
Why did you spare us
Else we could have enjoyed
Promised eternal delights
Instead of CNN staring
At this endless nightmare
What a cruel waste
You made of our pure world
Looked for my green land
But it is under thick trashes
Those burnt evidence ashes
Long swept by the wind
You built your malls
On our bison bones
So much death still alive
On hate don't arise peace
My testimony I am not guilty
But the blood in my vein
Tell me I cried in vain
Cause you're forever villain
Historical backlashes
Can't even teach you
To clean your a$$es
Jul 11th, 2005, 11:52 AM
monsoon shadow
i can't forget this look under the heavy rain
i can't forget this glimpse in the night
i know we are just hopes and a dream for each other
i know distance make us feel more alive but less real
that kinda pain make us feel warm and hopefull
that a day will bring us some closeness,
just as if life could turn into a fairytale
let's come adults, forget our dreams, forget ourselves
let us live by society standard and become two shadows in the night
love is impossible, just like our life
Jan 8th, 2007, 11:05 PM
i can't forget this glimpse in the night
i know we are just hopes and a dream for each other
i know distance make us feel more alive but less real
that kinda pain make us feel warm and hopefull
that a day will bring us some closeness,
just as if life could turn into a fairytale
let's come adults, forget our dreams, forget ourselves
let us live by society standard and become two shadows in the night
love is impossible, just like our life
Jan 8th, 2007, 11:05 PM
monsoon shadow ( following)
My love has big black eyes.
My love has no one to care for
My love is lonely and poor
My love has some despair in his eyes
My love does not speak my language
But love has its own language
And I can see in his eyes all the dreams he have
And I’m the only one to live those dreams
I feel ashamed to have that luck for two
It snows on the top of the world
And my love is cold, and lonely at night
But my words sent on wires warm him
Until destiny brings us together again
Jan 24th, 2007, 07:00 PM
My love has no one to care for
My love is lonely and poor
My love has some despair in his eyes
My love does not speak my language
But love has its own language
And I can see in his eyes all the dreams he have
And I’m the only one to live those dreams
I feel ashamed to have that luck for two
It snows on the top of the world
And my love is cold, and lonely at night
But my words sent on wires warm him
Until destiny brings us together again
Jan 24th, 2007, 07:00 PM
fairy
I'm a fairy, come take my hand
I'll lead you to the land of dreams
I'm a fairy, follow my grass eyes
My smile will guie you to happiness
I'm a fairy, listen to my song
I'll whisper the secrets to paradise
I'm a fairy, catch my golden hair
I'll let your heart shines away from sorrow
But you're stoned heart shout
That's a witch stay away
In the hurry of stressfull meaningless life
You turned your back and stay hollow
Jan 27th, 2007, 02:04 PM
I'll lead you to the land of dreams
I'm a fairy, follow my grass eyes
My smile will guie you to happiness
I'm a fairy, listen to my song
I'll whisper the secrets to paradise
I'm a fairy, catch my golden hair
I'll let your heart shines away from sorrow
But you're stoned heart shout
That's a witch stay away
In the hurry of stressfull meaningless life
You turned your back and stay hollow
Jan 27th, 2007, 02:04 PM
blue love
all i can see is a shining lamp
a smiling sun in the cotton blue sky
i have an infinite love for winter
the marvellous shades of blue ice
it seems sight never will get back
i'm lost in blue paradise
Mar 10th, 2007, 10:03 PM
July wednesday 20th and thursday 21th, 1st day in india
i spent the whole day in a plane, trains, subway, waiting room, customs and taxi yestserday, from 6AM Paris time to 24PM Dehli time!!!!!! then I washed clothes and took a shower as soon as I went to my guest house and sleep (or triedy to! but couldn't because of time change btw paris and dehli) only few hours before a busy shopping day today....I bought 3 pretty silk salwar kamez, a silk carpet from kashmir (for namaz), shoes, bag...well to much stuff!!!!!!!
22nd july, second day in new dehli-Jul 24th, 2005 at 12:12 PM
wow a fucking mosquito bite me tonight I scratch it on the wall...she was full of blood
no I am not tired because of the mosquito but because I am difficult to adjust to time change when going eastward on the globe...
yesterday night I watched PTV world...first time in my life watching paki TV!!! musharraf was talking....and I understood!!! that kind of feeling is great...I meant he is talking clear and slow so it is easy to understand, especially because he uses many english words but I really liked to understand spoken urdu with no subtitles, images or anything else than the talk to undestrand what was said....but I did not watch the whole talk because it is boringpolitician talk....
no I am not tired because of the mosquito but because I am difficult to adjust to time change when going eastward on the globe...yesterday night I watched PTV world...first time in my life watching paki TV!!! musharraf was talking....and I understood!!! that kind of feeling is great...I meant he is talking clear and slow so it is easy to understand, especially because he uses many english words but I really liked to understand spoken urdu with no subtitles, images or anything else than the talk to undestrand what was said....but I did not watch the whole talk because it is boringpolitician talk....
23th july-Jul 24th, 2005 at 12:17 PM
I am a lucky girl because this morning I had to wake up at 4h30 to depart at 5 oclock from new Dehli to Jaipur (train at 6.00)...and no alarm clock...and I slept very well, but woke up at 4.30sharp! isn'it weird?
Anyway i took the train at 6.00 at new dehli...it was a nice journey, i enjoyed looking at the landscape from my window, execpt for the slums and poor people I saw...it is difficult for me to look at all this poverty! I feel embarrassed.
I like the countryside, green fields, flooded fields (rice?)
women in colorful saris walking around, thin white silhouettes of standing men looking after cattle...and in the trees peacoks...my favourite bird!
I have been walking in Jaipur most of the afternoon...all the time risckhaw-walla, asking me where I want to go, whereas i only wanted to walk!...but there are so few peolple walking because of the heat...but I like it, ..and also if i don't walk I feel like a lazy-bum and i just hate sitting the whole day in a train, plane or taxi...I need exercise...and it's easy to hide from the sun...my dupatta over the head and I don't even think about sun shining on my face any more...yes I am wearing one the salwar kamiz I bought in mew Dehli...i like it very much!
Anyway i took the train at 6.00 at new dehli...it was a nice journey, i enjoyed looking at the landscape from my window, execpt for the slums and poor people I saw...it is difficult for me to look at all this poverty! I feel embarrassed.
I like the countryside, green fields, flooded fields (rice?)
women in colorful saris walking around, thin white silhouettes of standing men looking after cattle...and in the trees peacoks...my favourite bird!
I have been walking in Jaipur most of the afternoon...all the time risckhaw-walla, asking me where I want to go, whereas i only wanted to walk!...but there are so few peolple walking because of the heat...but I like it, ..and also if i don't walk I feel like a lazy-bum and i just hate sitting the whole day in a train, plane or taxi...I need exercise...and it's easy to hide from the sun...my dupatta over the head and I don't even think about sun shining on my face any more...yes I am wearing one the salwar kamiz I bought in mew Dehli...i like it very much!
2nd day in jaipur-Jul 24th, 2005 at 12:28 PM
I was very tired yesterday too , I slept straight after coming back to my hotel.... then have diner, then discuss with the two iranians guest staying at the guest house in Jaipur...at the beginning there were the manager, he was saying I have an american accent but one of the iranians women answered that I am talking with the same rythm than a german...so my english accent is a mix of US and german!
i was gonna have a shower when I SAW something moving in my bathroom bag...it was a big insect...6 cm long at least
i WAS SO FRITHENED, i reached for my shampoo bottle and killed it with it ...I was really shaken!...we don't have so big insects in France....
Today I went to Amber fort and city palace of Jaipur an took some pics...
These palaces once inhabitad by mahrajahs are really amazing, but they are not so richly decorated as say, previous royal castles that we have in France...mostly because most of the furniture and original carpets, tapestry..are gone! But from outside they are really wonderful!
i loved also this abandonned palace, like floating on a lake, just outside the city of jaipur
I think there are too many tourists regularly visiting there because streets vendors are a hassle...yesterday it was the rickshaw wallw, today the street vendor...oh I forgot about that carpet sailor...he showed me how to make a carpet, briefly, then many nice carpets, all sizes and all colors, then started to chat a bit in french with me!...yeap many french in Rajasthan!...tried to convinve me 100hundred ways to buy a carpet...but I don't want to, I already got one fine not expensive in new dehli....!
i was gonna have a shower when I SAW something moving in my bathroom bag...it was a big insect...6 cm long at least
i WAS SO FRITHENED, i reached for my shampoo bottle and killed it with it ...I was really shaken!...we don't have so big insects in France....
Today I went to Amber fort and city palace of Jaipur an took some pics...
These palaces once inhabitad by mahrajahs are really amazing, but they are not so richly decorated as say, previous royal castles that we have in France...mostly because most of the furniture and original carpets, tapestry..are gone! But from outside they are really wonderful!
i loved also this abandonned palace, like floating on a lake, just outside the city of jaipur
I think there are too many tourists regularly visiting there because streets vendors are a hassle...yesterday it was the rickshaw wallw, today the street vendor...oh I forgot about that carpet sailor...he showed me how to make a carpet, briefly, then many nice carpets, all sizes and all colors, then started to chat a bit in french with me!...yeap many french in Rajasthan!...tried to convinve me 100hundred ways to buy a carpet...but I don't want to, I already got one fine not expensive in new dehli....!
last day in Jaipur, indian impression-Jul 25th, 2005 at 12:02 PM
I visited the inner wall city today, yani Jaipur has an old historical center inside pink walls, with decorated and impressive gates...inside there are many shops, various shops selling almost anything...but i was not in the mood to shop..somtimes I just don't feel like buying anything...I don't want to buy stuff, just cause I can afford it and then have no use for it! i have to plan minimum beforehand what I'd like to buy otherwise, i don't buy...even if those shopkeepers in India try very hard to sell their goods to any tourists I don't know if there is some kind of equation like, white=$$$ ...
I was followed most of morning by a guy.... first he was cycling on the road and when reached me said to me I love you...I thought that'll be all, but he was like allways on my way afterwards, i don't know how! everytime i didn't notice he just pumped from nowhere passing close to me trying to touch me...*disguting*I became paranoid, kept on looking backwards all the time...after 1 hour he probably got pissed off...and left me alone finally!
indian streets are very dirty, trashes everywhere, people (men) peeing on almost any corner...it is not really nice...and also cows and other aimals (camels, goats...) are ****ing on the streets so with the brilliant sun, it is really stinking! but I guess I got used to it because I don't really mind now!...oh there are also garbages on the streets, and animals are eating them!
fortunately some shops are seling garlands of flowers close to hindus temple so it is a relief from bad smell!, I like jasmine and roses smell very much!
I was followed most of morning by a guy.... first he was cycling on the road and when reached me said to me I love you...I thought that'll be all, but he was like allways on my way afterwards, i don't know how! everytime i didn't notice he just pumped from nowhere passing close to me trying to touch me...*disguting*I became paranoid, kept on looking backwards all the time...after 1 hour he probably got pissed off...and left me alone finally!
indian streets are very dirty, trashes everywhere, people (men) peeing on almost any corner...it is not really nice...and also cows and other aimals (camels, goats...) are ****ing on the streets so with the brilliant sun, it is really stinking! but I guess I got used to it because I don't really mind now!...oh there are also garbages on the streets, and animals are eating them!
fortunately some shops are seling garlands of flowers close to hindus temple so it is a relief from bad smell!, I like jasmine and roses smell very much!
last day in Jaipur...2-Jul 26th, 2005 at 07:28 PM
after sitting 2 hours in front of a computer in a cyber cafe, I had finished my 1l bottle of purified water and felt a bit thirsty, I wanted a tea...I entered a neary cafe/restaurant full of locals, all males (why no women?) and ordered a "cai", I was quite disapointed to be answered they had none, India isn't a tea country?? well the guy said they had lassi, s I decided to try....hmmmm, it was cold enough but not frozen, sweet enough not to be sour, creamy but not to hearty....well delicious....then I walked back home....diner as usual...wanted to access internet but...no connection!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I was so sad....
samode palace- Jul 26th, 2005 at 07:46 PM
I went from jaipur to samode by car today...with the same car and driver that will take me to the whole Rajastan during this next 2 weeks...
I am amazed at the way people drive...apart from being very slow...which I like (I can't drive in France, it's too fast and I am frightenned by speed)...they use the horn all the time...I saw some trucks that had written on the back: speed 40km/h BLOW HORN...in addition to trucks and cars, there are numerous bycicles, rickshaws, scooters and also some camel driven carriage!...ooops I forgot to mention cows...and other cattles!
So I am in Samode Palace! that's great! the dining hall is amazing! my room too! the bathroom is at least 5m long!...and it's looking like a real maharajah suite!...this place is great, i'll have to post pics later...
I toured the village this afternoon...first I met a family, Khan family...I know because I asked for the address to send their picture that I took...hopefuly speaking and reading a little hindi helped me communicate with these women and girls who know no english! excep HELLO!
Then I met a boy...who guided me to some other part of the village, 14 years old and so intelligent, english speaking too...afterwards he showed me his paintings...then another guy, my age, came to show his paintings..both were very nice...that other guy spoke very good english and we talked until night...he took some time to believe it's my first time in India...as he think I am behaving just like an indian! it was fun learning from him more about indian village life...I liked it...he saw I have an open wound on my right foot and some bees were sometime eating my flesh when i sat still so he asked the younger guy to catch some plants nearby...and press the liquid out on my wound!...indian medicine, I guess!....I hope it's gonna heal soon, but bees really scare me now, I don't want to be eaten alive!
I bought some paintings from them...negociate hard the price thought!...then I finally could taste some of the real indian masala tea! just as in my memory from the time I had indian friends preparing some for me...fine! I like it...I just feel like i am home then.
I am amazed at the way people drive...apart from being very slow...which I like (I can't drive in France, it's too fast and I am frightenned by speed)...they use the horn all the time...I saw some trucks that had written on the back: speed 40km/h BLOW HORN...in addition to trucks and cars, there are numerous bycicles, rickshaws, scooters and also some camel driven carriage!...ooops I forgot to mention cows...and other cattles!
So I am in Samode Palace! that's great! the dining hall is amazing! my room too! the bathroom is at least 5m long!...and it's looking like a real maharajah suite!...this place is great, i'll have to post pics later...
I toured the village this afternoon...first I met a family, Khan family...I know because I asked for the address to send their picture that I took...hopefuly speaking and reading a little hindi helped me communicate with these women and girls who know no english! excep HELLO!
Then I met a boy...who guided me to some other part of the village, 14 years old and so intelligent, english speaking too...afterwards he showed me his paintings...then another guy, my age, came to show his paintings..both were very nice...that other guy spoke very good english and we talked until night...he took some time to believe it's my first time in India...as he think I am behaving just like an indian! it was fun learning from him more about indian village life...I liked it...he saw I have an open wound on my right foot and some bees were sometime eating my flesh when i sat still so he asked the younger guy to catch some plants nearby...and press the liquid out on my wound!...indian medicine, I guess!....I hope it's gonna heal soon, but bees really scare me now, I don't want to be eaten alive!
I bought some paintings from them...negociate hard the price thought!...then I finally could taste some of the real indian masala tea! just as in my memory from the time I had indian friends preparing some for me...fine! I like it...I just feel like i am home then.
Mandawa, Shekawati region, Rajasthan-Jul 27th, 2005 at 03:10 PM
I came from Samode to Mandawa this morning, it was a pleasant 2.5hour car trip...many things to see on the road from cattle to big trucks loaded with cattle food, coming from Punjab.....
I am staying at the Mandawa castle...from there I have a nice view of the city....I took a pic...I am impressed by the size of the masjid compare to the size of the city...only 20.000inhabitants...that is reallt different in france!!
I slept during the middle of the day...anyway it was to hot to go out..and people at the hotel advised me to tour tour the city late in the afternoon...I felt dizzy afterwards, but decided to tour at 3PM...a cool breeze and no sun!
Then I went to visit the small city because there are havelis; old houses nicely painted...one guy made me tour and explained the city...but he had a crush on me! he remembered when and how I arrived in the city...saying alle the time I am nice, calling Noor Jaan...asking if I am married or have a boyfriend...lol! indians can be so funny! but I am not interested anyway....
those houses are mostly abandoned and most of their paintings are really in bad condition...the hot sun does not help...anyway the owners of these former palaces are into business and live far away in big cities, they have other hings o care about than these historical monuments....it gives an odd feeling visiting this pretty but deserted old city!
I am staying at the Mandawa castle...from there I have a nice view of the city....I took a pic...I am impressed by the size of the masjid compare to the size of the city...only 20.000inhabitants...that is reallt different in france!!
I slept during the middle of the day...anyway it was to hot to go out..and people at the hotel advised me to tour tour the city late in the afternoon...I felt dizzy afterwards, but decided to tour at 3PM...a cool breeze and no sun!
Then I went to visit the small city because there are havelis; old houses nicely painted...one guy made me tour and explained the city...but he had a crush on me! he remembered when and how I arrived in the city...saying alle the time I am nice, calling Noor Jaan...asking if I am married or have a boyfriend...lol! indians can be so funny! but I am not interested anyway....
those houses are mostly abandoned and most of their paintings are really in bad condition...the hot sun does not help...anyway the owners of these former palaces are into business and live far away in big cities, they have other hings o care about than these historical monuments....it gives an odd feeling visiting this pretty but deserted old city!
Bikaner 28th july
so I was sick 2 days ago...fever and upset stomach when I had to go from Mandawa to Bikaner...so i could'nt do anything that day...i saw an indian doctor as soon as i arrived in bikaner hotel. it was cheap, quick and good efficient medicine so i could visit a camel research institute at night...I love camels very much, there were also baby camels, so cute!
The next morning so I finally vivited the fort, which I was supposed to do the day before...it was nice
The next morning so I finally vivited the fort, which I was supposed to do the day before...it was nice
bikaner / jaisalmer 29th
main parson bemaar thi...fever and upset stomach when I had to go from Mandawa to Bikaner...so i could'nt do anything that day...so i could'nt do anything that day...i saw an indian doctor as soon as i arrived in bikaner hotel. it was cheap, quick and good efficient medicine so i could visit a camel research institute at night...I love camels very much, there were also baby camels, so cute!
The next morning so I finally vivited the fort, which I was supposed to do the day before...it was nice...
Yesterday I traveled from bikaner to Jaisalmer..300 km by road btw the desert...mostly savanah...some sand dunes, sometimes reaching the road and beginning to cover the milesstones...I had bought cassettes of indian music in Mandawa, and the driver played them while driving, so it was less boring! anyway I enjoy so much the travel...cattle on the way, small villages made of earth and thatched roofs! camel carriage and colorful trucks!
I went to the lake close to Jaisalmer, very beautiful scenery..a girl saw me and said 'hei auntie!' so I replied"main auntie nahin hoon"...she was surprised...then her whole family started talking little hindi with me...a muslim family!...but with he hindi accent they couldn't say "khuda hafiz" but"kuda hafiz"lol!
at the guest house, one of the guys is literally eating me with the eyes...that's really embarrasssing...anyway i am now getting more used to it...some indian guys are just so staring...i feel like hiding but the more I hide the more they get curious about me!
In the night I wanted to eat diner outside, but the guest house keeeper told me to order food from anearby restaurant and eat on the roof...that was really pleasant , nice view of the city from the top of the fort and on the approaching storm and thunder....just after I finished my diner...the sand storm covered the low outer city, hit us and then came rain...I was lucky not to have gone outside! I reached my room and 5 min later, power cut! luck again the room is small so I knew where everything was and didn't need light to walk around!!!
but i was relieved 2hours later when I could finallly put AC on to have a nice sleep!
The next morning so I finally vivited the fort, which I was supposed to do the day before...it was nice...
Yesterday I traveled from bikaner to Jaisalmer..300 km by road btw the desert...mostly savanah...some sand dunes, sometimes reaching the road and beginning to cover the milesstones...I had bought cassettes of indian music in Mandawa, and the driver played them while driving, so it was less boring! anyway I enjoy so much the travel...cattle on the way, small villages made of earth and thatched roofs! camel carriage and colorful trucks!
I went to the lake close to Jaisalmer, very beautiful scenery..a girl saw me and said 'hei auntie!' so I replied"main auntie nahin hoon"...she was surprised...then her whole family started talking little hindi with me...a muslim family!...but with he hindi accent they couldn't say "khuda hafiz" but"kuda hafiz"lol!
at the guest house, one of the guys is literally eating me with the eyes...that's really embarrasssing...anyway i am now getting more used to it...some indian guys are just so staring...i feel like hiding but the more I hide the more they get curious about me!
In the night I wanted to eat diner outside, but the guest house keeeper told me to order food from anearby restaurant and eat on the roof...that was really pleasant , nice view of the city from the top of the fort and on the approaching storm and thunder....just after I finished my diner...the sand storm covered the low outer city, hit us and then came rain...I was lucky not to have gone outside! I reached my room and 5 min later, power cut! luck again the room is small so I knew where everything was and didn't need light to walk around!!!
but i was relieved 2hours later when I could finallly put AC on to have a nice sleep!
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