puzzling

Assembling the puzzle, and digging deeper.
I've always had these thoughts, but I desperately failed to align my actions towards those dreams.
Let go of fear, any of them even before I'm old, because it's neither too late nor too early.
Did I really have to ask their permission? Did I really fear to upset them? always, so forget everyone it's more than an experiment, flashback.

Forgo the dead ends of fame, I really want to be alone there, on top of that sandhill, bordering that lake. My heart belongs to yellow sunsets, and wide stars, and beaches.
And run, jump, dance.

Let's face it, I don't fight because I forget myself when I'm hurt, and when I come back, I'm more destructive than weak. It was stupid to suggest that I could have disposable friends, because they are not, and I could never care.

Sadly I wish I had, so I'm doing it otherwise, but avoiding to talk is not the smartest way. Sure if they don't know know me I can't throw them out of my life carelessly. I should not shy away, shouldn't I?

All the love that we had, or not, when we were young determines how well we can, or can't, cope with our emotional transitions today. However out there people are all different, some loving, some indifferent, some hating, so we shall neither lose hope, nor trust too much: balance in everything!